Chapter 22 8. Equinox

Dangerous building, daydream, champagne, occupancy After finally waiting for the appointed day, I asked the restaurant for leave. As soon as the sun went down, I climbed up the dangerous building. The city of Salvador was originally a hill by the sea. More than 200 years ago, the Portuguese dynasty established a temporary capital here to avoid domestic turmoil, so it was called Salvador.Later, the population gradually increased, and then it developed to the foot of the mountain and the seaside.As for the gray area between the top and bottom of the mountain, no one cares about it, and it has become a paradise for the poor.Many dilapidated and old houses, as well as row after row of dilapidated and dilapidated houses, are concentrated here.

As soon as I entered the door, I couldn't help but searched for Caroline's beautiful image.Sitting cross-legged on the carpet in the back hall, she was teaching a Brazilian girl how to read English.Seeing me, she smiled and stretched out her hand, and I shook her catkin. I saw that she was still wearing the same clothes, and deliberately joked: You didn't change into the evening dress? She gave me a blank look and didn't answer.At this time Neo came over from the front and said: You came just in time, we have a party tonight, you can attend. There were quite a few people in the room, and Neo introduced them to me one by one.Among them was Philip, an Australian with long hair hanging down his shoulders. Beside him was his wife, Betty, and their youngest son, Nicole, who was three months old.

Caroline pointed to little Nicole and said to me: He is my husband. ah?So you have a husband, a fiancé?I joked again. Who has a fiancé?She opened her eyes and looked at me. Isn't Tony your fiancé? ah!Tony!Every girl is his fiancée! Another tall, Argentinian, Ganger, is one of the elders here.There is also a Mexican, Gringo, with thick and long eyebrows, which are completely connected into a straight line.He greeted me in Spanish-speaking English that sounded like church hymns.Before I understood, Caroline was already staggering with laughter. Greene said sternly: Don't laugh at me, your American English is not as authentic as mine!If you don't believe me, ask Philip.That tone is like a pure Oxford accent, and like Spanish. When he uses tongue, he rolls his tongue and shakes it on purpose.

Fili couldn't bear him, and told him to shut up loudly. As soon as he spoke, he had a very strong Australian accent, which was in sharp contrast to Gringo. While talking and laughing, Tony came back, wearing an African coat with contrasting patterns and colors.I saw him stretching his hands to the left and right, the corners of his clothes drooping, and his whole body became square.Only the little head with the black beard came out of the center, and he said in many different languages: welcome!welcome!Ladies and gentlemen.When he saw me, he bent down and apologized and said: Sorry, I haven't started learning Chinese yet.

As soon as he arrived, the atmosphere changed immediately, and a dozen or so people had a bridge of communication.At one moment, they speak Brazilian, then Spanish, then English and Italian. The small room seems to be a United Nations.When talking, Tony is like the conductor of a symphony orchestra, facing east for a while, and west for a while, one after another, he can always cope with it. During the conversation, I was flattered that Caroline slowly moved closer to me.Just about to talk to her, she pressed her finger to her lips, made a silent gesture, and listened attentively to Tony's conversation.

I also paid attention to listening, only to realize that they were not just chatting casually, they were discussing whether everyone would stay or stay. It turned out that both Philip and Green were invited by Tony to live here. Since they were unwilling to join the group, Neo asked them to move out immediately.They looked distressed and kept asking for accommodation.Several people bargained and talked for a long time, and finally agreed to leave within three days. Then Neo, Gange and Xiuzi sat side by side facing Zhengxi, and Tony sat on the opposite side.After they held a simple ceremony, they began to argue fiercely in Spanish. Tony seemed to be on the defensive, pointing at Gringo from time to time, as if he was pleading for them.But Neo refused, and scolded Tony sternly, while Gange chimed in, interjecting a few words from time to time.

The others seemed to be commonplace, and everyone leaned against the wall expressionlessly.I felt bored, so I took out a pen and paper and sketched everyone. Caroline saw it and tilted her head to appreciate it.I drew Neo as a giant, snarling and grinning, and Tony as a native African kneeling on the ground begging for mercy. Caroline saw that I had finished drawing, and hurriedly reached out her hand, asked for the drawing paper, crumpled it up, and gave me a wink.I figured that Neo must be too domineering, she was afraid I would get into trouble. When they were done talking, suddenly Tony called out:

Caroline!Come sit down a little bit! Caroline moved forward as she said, as if being interrogated by a judge in court, she lowered her head and remained motionless. Did you decide?Neo asked. decide what? Decide whether to join us. I have already decided. Are you saying that you decided to become a practitioner long ago? Caroline tilted her head and nodded a little. Tony turned around again and asked me: What about you? Since Caroline decided to become a practitioner, being able to be with her is of course a dream.However, I haven't figured out what's going on, how can I promise easily?

Seeing my hesitation, Neo interrupted and said: Come back tomorrow, I can answer your questions. What a big tone!How does he know about my problem?I had no choice but to imitate Caroline and nodded. They started arguing again, I don't know anything else, but in Spanish, the pronunciation of money is the same as in Brazilian, and they seem to be forcing money from Tony.Tony's face was red, and everyone was arguing. In the end, Neo seemed to propose a ritual solution, so the four of them turned around and faced the wall. After each conversation, Gang would recite a scripture in the lead, and the other three would repeat it.After a while like this, everyone really calmed down and all differences were eliminated.

After the meeting, Tony excitedly shook Neo's hand, thanking him again and again.The four people gathered together, hugging and kissing each other, looking happy and happy. I showed up on time for my appointment the next day, and Caroline was alone in the empty room.As expected, I want to have a good talk with her. She told me she was a sophomore at Washington State University.Her father passed away early. At the beginning of the year, she came to Brazil with her mother for vacation. She decided to stay temporarily and planned to visit various places in South America.As a result, as soon as I arrived in Bahia, I was fascinated by the local customs and customs, and I was still reluctant to leave.In the end, when the money ran out, I happened to meet Gange, brought her here, and asked her to join the organization.

How much do you know about them? Probably about the same as you. So why are you participating? Who said I participated?She smiled mysteriously, that kind of smile is like a naughty child's prank. yesterday Yesterday I just told Neo that I had made up my mind a long time ago, and he used his mouth to say that I would become a practitioner. Hurrah!You used to study law. She smiled, very pretty, very sweet. They went to eat, today I deliberately stayed and waited for you.Because I also want to know, if it is worth it, I will stay and study, otherwise I will leave when the time comes, and no one can keep me. So you haven't eaten yet? This is a common occurrence, sometimes without food for days! What do you usually rely on to make a living? Tony sold a lot of paintings, but he was too social to spend a lot of money.Neo was very dissatisfied with this point. Like yesterday's meeting, they had held it countless times, but what was the use? Tony is very talented, but he doesn't look like a monk at all. Tony used to work in a TV station in Rio, and his life was very erosive, drinking heavily all day long.Later, when I met Neo, the two had a good talk, so they came here to practice Taoism together. In this way, Neo is really capable? All I know is that he was originally a philosophy lecturer at the University of Buenos Aires, and Hideko was his student.Their organization is international, and the participants are all voluntary. At least I admire this spirit. We were talking, and Neo came back, and the first thing he said was: What's your problem? I want to know what are you guys after? truth! What is truth? Truth is the absolute principle of the universe. Since it is absolute, how do we know that we have obtained it? Of course you don't know, but I do. Then, you are saying the same thing as Christianity!I must believe in you before I can be saved! No, we have evidence, and you'll know it when you read it. Can I see the evidence first? If you don't participate in the practice first, you won't understand it even if you show it to you. I took a sneak peek at Caroline, who was expressionless and meditating with her eyes closed.Neo is right. If the truth is obvious to everyone, it is not worth pursuing.But isn't this the same as believing first to be saved?I asked again: What precepts do you have? No, unless you think practice is a precept. What is the stage of further study? The first step is folklore, religion, and symbolic philosophy; the second step is a comparison of various religions; the third step is meditation.Of course, this refers to practitioners who have already received a university education, otherwise they need to study science. This kind of advanced training must have a considerable scale. What plans do you have? He drew a table on paper, showing that he had dabbled in Chinese philosophical theories. The whole in the table is a circle composed of yin and yang, where yin represents matter and yang represents the spiritual world.The spiritual world is divided into three talents: there are three god monks in the heaven, who travel around the world everywhere; there are seven ascetic monks in the earth, who are responsible for guiding organizations in various places; The world is a disciple who has not yet started, and each practitioner should absorb four disciples to help solve life problems. Neo is an ascetic monk. He was ordered to come here to develop the organization. Unexpectedly, the Brazilians are lazy and have no interest in metaphysics.At present, there are not enough practitioners, so I really hope that I can participate. After talking for a long time, I generally have a concept, but I don't think that I can get the truth in this way, so I told Neo that I hope to think about it again. Before leaving, Caroline suddenly said to me in English: I hope to talk to you. Of course we couldn't wish for it, so we made an appointment to meet at the restaurant at 1:00 pm the next day. Although Neo's concept has added some superficial elements of Eastern thought, it has not departed from the category of Western religion in principle.To put it bluntly, this kind of practice is nothing more than another group of people who are dissatisfied with the current situation and want to pursue religious ideas, restarting the stove and integrating known religions.Is religion the truth of life?Must truth be inseparable from religious forms? If this is also a religion, I think there is a decisive and important factor that they ignore intentionally or unintentionally, and that is the precepts.If such an organization does not have a certain restraint force, it will either collapse in the end, or under the pressure of survival, the peripheral disciples will have to engage in illegal activities. For me personally, there is no reason to participate.But my affection for Caroline is growing day by day. Anyway, I have reached the point where I have long given up any hope for my future.But if at the last moment of one's own life, one can still contribute to others, it is worth living.Since Caroline participated, of course I can join, at least I can protect her, maybe she will fall in love with me, who knows? Caroline wanted to talk to me. It is believed that after my conversation with Neo, she gained a new understanding and wanted to study with me.After analyzing it again and again, I probably can't come up with the following three points: 1. She has great confidence in this organization: try to persuade me to join, or think that I am not good for them, and persuade me to quit. Two, she has no confidence in this organization: tell me some secrets, ask for my opinion, or want to leave them, ask me for help. 3. Just want to chat with me and make friends. The most amazing thing about life is that when you have a clear goal and direction, you can concentrate on thinking, and all the pain and troubles will disappear.This is the first night in a year that I have been able to sleep soundly.When I woke up in the morning, I was still concentrating on studying the answers, and felt very warm. My colleagues at the restaurant noticed my change, and everyone came to congratulate me and wish me well.I had no choice but to tell them that I was going to invite someone to dinner at noon, and it was a lady. ah!I see!Got a girlfriend!great!You rest at noon today, and I will treat you to this meal!The shopkeeper said generously. The news spread quickly, and soon, the old horse came, and all the Chinese friends he knew well in Shashi came.Everyone pretended to be nonchalant, but each occupied a corner of the restaurant, staring at each other. Some of my colleagues lent me clothes and ties, and some advised me to get a haircut and perfume.God, it's good for friends to care, can I tell them it's a girl hippie today?It would be strange not to scare them to death.How could anyone accept my invitation yesterday if I had to change into a new outfit to impress? The entire restaurant is like an enemy, very much like an idiot son at home preparing for a blind date.I think it's funny, but I can't tell you.We have been together for half a year, and our daily life is dull and boring. It is rare for everyone to have a chance to relax. At one o'clock, Caroline appeared at the door slowly. She didn't realize that she had become the target of public criticism, and sat down with me calmly.I felt something was wrong. There were not many customers at this time, and those friends all occupied the seats against the wall.A stage was left empty in the center, with only the two of us in the hole, as if it had been specially arranged. I was afraid that she would be overwhelmed, so when I saw her, I would talk non-stop. She always listened with a smile and seldom spoke. The waiter came to hand over the menu, she ordered a piece of fish, and I recommended char siu pork, she said: I don't eat red meat. Afraid of getting fat?She smiled and ignored me.She always had that dress, always that look, like a lily of the valley.Now that there is no interference from a third party, I just have the opportunity to take a closer look at her beauty. She's not the attractive pretty type, but she's natural, sweet, and youthful.Straight eyebrows, two blue-gray eyes hanging below, and a pretty nose.It's just that the mouth is too thin, and the corners of the mouth are upturned when smiling, and the arc carries the lightly raised eyebrows, which are very elegant.But once the smile disappears, the face collapses, appearing preoccupied, like an iceberg that keeps sinking downwards. You don't order?She suddenly interrupted my reverie. oh!I have already eaten. Eat some more.There was provocation in her smile. I did not show any weakness, and said on her behalf: I am afraid of getting fat. When the dishes came, she ate quietly, and I told her frankly that the three things I predicted were related to the purpose of her visit today.My English is not very good, but I believe I can convey the meaning. After listening to me, she put down her chopsticks and asked me: What do you think? I sincerely hope it is the third, unfortunately, I have no reason to convince myself.So, according to the facts, I had to choose the second one. She laughed again: Then what else can I say? In order to sympathize with me, tell me that it is the third article.I also said with a smile. She ignored it, just picked up the chopsticks, picked two fishbone from the bowl, and put them on the table.I quickly grabbed a big fishbone with my hand and put it on the table side by side with her two.When she saw it, she couldn't help covering her mouth with a smile. Honestly, I don't think Neo can teach us any truth.Because whether wise or foolish, there is no one in the world who does not want to know the truth.If he has already got it, he doesn't have to pursue it so hard.If you haven't got it yet, I don't believe that you can find some people everywhere and use this method to get it. She nodded, feeling quite sympathetic, paused, and said: What about you? I have decided.I imitated her tone, that English-style Brazilian. What is the decision? decided to join. why? For you!Her gray eyes widened in surprise.In the reflection of her eyes, I saw my shrunken shadow: There were many philosophers in ancient China who pursued the truth of life, and they concluded that a seeker must first have four conditions: money, leisure, companionship, and fate.Without money, one cannot survive; without leisure, one has no time to pursue; without a partner, it is very likely that something unexpected will happen in the process of cultivating the Tao, so that the success falls short at the last moment. I didn't think about these in the past. First, it was impossible, and second, my self-confidence was too strong.Now, at least I have a chance. Maybe I can find a beautiful partner. She didn't answer, and there was a lot of worry in her brows.For some reason, I always feel that she has a mysterious aura. In the distant past, there must have been some unspeakable secrets, so that dikes were built high and strict self-defense. There were too many caring eyes in the store, and it was too inconvenient to talk about it, so I invited her to eat ice cream. There was suspicion in her eyes again, and I said: Don't worry, you won't be shaken by this little favor. On September 7th Avenue, there is an elegant western restaurant.The front yard is an open-air guest seat, with several century-old trees with luxuriant branches and leaves, like a giant emerald green umbrella, holding the scorching sun at the top of the tree, only allowing us to be accompanied by thick shade and cool breeze. I decided to go to Rio. What?I was taken aback: You are not!You have already decided. Yeah, I just don't want to embarrass them too much. When are you leaving? I have to wait for a while and find a chance to talk.When she said that, she looked up at me, it seems that I can get along with her for a while, maybe she will change her mind. Do you have travel expenses? I'm used to hitchhiking, and we often have friends coming and going. Why do you have to go to Rio? My passport is about to expire, and besides, I still have some money in the bank in Rio, and I plan to travel to Chile. What is the purpose of your trip? She stared at me, and after a while, sighed, and said in a tone full of pity: I know what you mean, but I don't believe that there is truth in life, and I don't think you will find it. Then you don't believe in eternity, let alone eternal love. Say it!What is eternity? I just said it by the way, but she hit the point, how can I answer?You don't even understand yourself, and you haven't found it, but you want to show the fox's tail in front of her?She stared at me mockingly, her gray eyes and gray outlook on life seemed to be challenging me.It's just that I can't say I don't know, especially at this juncture. I thought and said: Things are changing, and people are changing, but the events that happened in the past will never change in memory. Can you guarantee that your future self will have the same perception of memory?She slapped me mercilessly. I am silent, poor man!Who can guarantee anything?Don't talk about the future, a few days ago, when I thought of Eloisa, the kind of heart-rending grief and regret taught me to assert that there will be no happiness in this life. Could it be that the belief I have been pursuing so hard has been negated by her?I know she is wrong, but apart from the fact that time can prove it, I searched all over and couldn't find a reason to refute it. However, for what reason?Caroline was alive in front of my eyes, with a smug gleam in her eyes.She may be mocking the impermanence of the world, or she may be sentimental about the helplessness of life. When two lost souls meet at this moment, who says it is not eternal?Never mind!When and what month did I have such a good opportunity?If you have it, you can rest in it, and let the memory be firmly tied to the present! It's past five o'clock, it's time to send her back.I don't want to let go of such a beautiful day easily. I want to remember every minute and every second, and imprint every trace of every step. Accompanying her to the dangerous building, only Bai Di was there, and it really didn't look like there was dinner, so I deliberately said: I'm hungry, how are you going to entertain me? Caroline saw a little red beans in an opened can, and said with a smile: Can you feed your big child with so many? Then you have no objection to feeding me? Why should I object? Well, I suggest going for something stomach-welcoming. Anyway, money speaks.she said with a shrug. Betty also wants to buy milk powder for Nico, and they happen to be traveling together. When I arrived at the supermarket, I pushed a handcart. Caroline picked food and bought a bag of the cheapest corn, a bag of coffee, and a few bananas. Are you afraid that I will gain weight?Yes or no? She blushed, glared at me and said, "Fool, this is what I like. If you don't think you're full, choose it yourself!" I saw some toys and wanted to buy them for little Nicole. Betty said softly to me: You're welcome, Nicole is only three months old and can't play anything, it's true that you bought some gifts for Caroline, unfortunately she has nothing. This really stumped me, what to buy?What works for her?Will she accept it?I thought and thought, and suddenly I had a good idea, and I said to Caroline solemnly: Sorry, I almost forgot, today is your birthday. My birthday? Last year today, I bought you a big cake, one floor taller than the Empire State Building, with the Statue of Liberty on it There is the Helios rocket!She interrupted me: There is still a big red heart! There should be a cocktail party, a dance!Betty also came to have fun. Do you remember where the dance was held? In the Sahara Desert?Caroline was angry and funny. Fool, it's on this dangerous building!We jumped, and the building shook. She couldn't help laughing, and said: That's good, Xiao Ni can sleep without being shaken. The atmosphere is almost created, so I turn to the topic: there are two bottles of champagne in the large freezer in our restaurant, and no one has dared to touch them for at least 20 years. They were bought together with the old freezer.They are reluctant to throw it away, but they dare not drink it. Anyway, we are not afraid of anything. I can bring it and let everyone have diarrhea! They all found it interesting, so I said: The moonlight is very good today, Philip, Betty and Grimm will be far away soon, it is fate that we can get together, let's forget about tomorrow. I have no objection, if you want to lose weight, just drink it! I went back to the restaurant happily, and the old horse hadn't left yet, waiting for me to chat.I asked the master chef to make two dishes and prepared to take them away. I also took the two bottles of old wine before I came over and said to them: Sorry, I am too busy today. I will treat you to a wedding wine in the future! You don't have a single thing for us to guess!How can you be an American hippie?said the old horse. Ready to immigrate to the US!said the restaurateur. But this hippie looks pretty good too!Can you introduce a few to me?The old horse said half seriously. No problem, but you have to get rid of your sister-in-law and come with me as a hippie intern. It can be discussed, maybe my wife is also interested in being a hippie. I said to the boss again: Give me these two bottles of wine. do what?This is not drinkable! Don't worry, hippies can eat anything, they are extremely resistant. They were waiting for me when we arrived at the dangerous building. Fili was back, and Tony and Neo were in the front room. I lay out the food on the rug and open the darker bottle first.It may be that it has been placed for too long, and there is no expected pop.I smelled it, and it smelled like candied dates. When I poured it into a cup, it turned purple in color, thick and thick.I dipped a little bit with my fingertips and licked it, and it turned out to be sweet. Caroline kept watching and asked anxiously: This doesn't look like champagne, can I drink it? Toxic is poisonous!I simply took a sip, and it tasted pure and moist, slightly sweet but not greasy, and had a refreshing jujube aroma.The juice slowly flowed from the mouth through the throat to the stomach, and there was an indescribable comfort. I hurriedly handed the cup to Caroline, she also took a sip, closed her eyes, and said after a while: Awesome! Caroline called Philip and Betty over, and the four of them drank up a bottle in no time, and everyone was full of praise.Originally, Caroline asked me to keep half of it for others to share, but I said there was a special bottle left, which had been frozen in the sink. Caroline went to fry corn, and the room was full of aromas, fried butter bananas, and made coffee.After everything was ready, I went to the front and invited Tony and the others over. Caroline excitedly picked up the unopened bottle, handed it to Tony and said: Zhu found a good thing that I have never drunk in my life today, but unfortunately I don’t know what it is. The bottle was bare and had long since lost its label. Tony studied it and said with certainty: This is champagne. No, there is no bubble when we open the bottle, and there is no alcohol taste at all when we drink it. That's broken champagne. Tony opened the bottle and poured the wine into the glass. It turned out to be yellow, completely different from the bottle he opened earlier.Tony stroked his beard, raised his wine glass and said: I, Tony, used to be an alcoholic. No matter good wine or bad wine, I drank whenever I had wine.After he finished speaking, he took a dramatic sip. Caroline asked anxiously: What's the smell? What does your drink taste like?he asked rhetorically. Can't tell, in short, there is no alcohol smell. Not bad at all, really no alcohol taste at all. So Neo asked for a glass and savored it slowly.Fei Li didn't enjoy drinking just now, so he asked for a glass, and poured it down with his head raised.All of a sudden, he jumped up and headed for the bathroom, making Tony laugh out loud. Caroline says: You liar! I am not lying!I only said that there is no smell of wine, not that there is no smell of vinegar! Greene came back very late, he had a girl in his arms, and he was half drunk.As soon as Neo saw him, he went to the front room to rest without saying a word.Tony yawned profusely, and went to bed after a while, and we were the only ones sitting silently in the entertainment room. In order to dilute the upcoming divorce, I found some topics, and when I was about to speak, Caroline knew what I wanted, so she pointed to the next door.I have been trying to keep the time reluctantly, even if I exchange it with my own life, but what else can I do?By the way, why not invite them to a restaurant?I'm the only one living there, and it's closed now, and there's not even a ghost, so it's time to have a good time! As soon as I suggested it, Philip agreed, and no one else had any objections.So the six of us, plus little Nicole, pierced the silence of the night, tore off the curtain of dreamland, and walked on the silver avenue paved by the moonlight. Greene has the charm of a tragic clown. While telling funny jokes, he constantly satirizes himself.Every time he finished speaking, he let others laugh, but he stopped, as if he had escaped into nothingness. We walked past a building where several homeless people were sleeping under the eaves, curled up in a ball covered only by newspapers.When Greene saw it, he squeezed over, lay down beside an old black man, and said to his girlfriend: Honey, you're home, go to sleep! His girlfriend pulled him desperately and said: Brother Green, stop messing around, let's go! mess around?Who do you think I am?This is my home! enough!Everyone else is waiting for us! Who is waiting for us?Do you think there will be people waiting for us in this world?Honey, come make love while you still love me! The poor old black person was woken up by their fuss.He sat up inexplicably, staring at them with sleepy eyes. Gringo was so sorry that he had to push his girlfriend onto the old black man, and said: My dear, give him a kiss! His girlfriend really kissed the old man's face, and the old man was both surprised and happy, as if he was in a fog. Caroline was quiet along the way, pursing her lips, seemingly indifferent to everything in front of her.At this time, the corners of her eyes shone with light, she took a deep breath, and couldn't help sighing: Oh, how much I will miss these people in the future! When he arrived at the restaurant, Fei Li immediately sat down and shouted proudly: "Shopkeeper!"Bring the menu! I looked good, and immediately served the menu respectfully and respectfully. Philip pretended to be a nouveau riche and said: No need to order, just bring the best! Sir, the best ones are sold out. Then give me Russian caviar, Italian macaroni, French tender steak Greene stopped him and said: It's shameless, this is a Chinese restaurant! Then give me a pair of chopsticks! Betty asked: What kind of food are chopsticks? Everyone laughed, and Betty also smirked. Greene grabbed the menu, read it carefully from beginning to end, and said to me solemnly: Bring me a glass of boiled water. Caroline and Betty had Coca-Cola, and Fili had milk. Greene said: Australians don’t grow, they only drink milk. Only those who are kind have sons, and it is my son who wants to drink milk. Greene said: Then give me a cup of killer! Betty asked curiously again: What is a murderer? You don't even know about killers?Everyone looked at Gringo, waiting for his explanation. Greene set his posture, as if preparing to give a speech, and everyone held their breaths.After a while, he said: You can ask Zhu, I only heard people say it, and I don't know what it is? Sake is Japanese rice wine, it should be drunk hot, and it should be served in a very delicate, paper-thin small wine glass.I prepared it and brought it to the table. When they saw the cup, they all found it novel and couldn't stop playing with it. Caroline said: I didn't drink alcohol at first, but when I saw such a cute cup, I wanted to try it too. Greene said: Fool, this cup is made of noodles, you can eat it if you like. Everyone immediately clamored for him to eat, and without hesitation, he picked it up and threw it into his mouth. I hurriedly stopped and said: Be careful, this cup is very thin and I didn't finish my words, only heard a slap, Gringo's face was swollen and red, and he couldn't move. Caroline yelled in fright: Quick!quick!Spit it out! Greene opened his mouth in pain, and the cup was still in his mouth, intact. Philip thought of how he felt cheated by drinking vinegar just now, so he asked me to pour a glass of vinegar.At this time, everyone was tasting the rice wine. It looked hot, but it felt cool in the mouth, and they were full of praise.Greene has a lot of alcohol and is not used to small cups, so he picked up the bottle, put it to his mouth, and poured it into his stomach. I just said: No!very hot! Greene didn't have to pretend this time, his eyes were as big as copper bells, and he was speechless for a long time.Others thought he was playing tricks, and they all looked at him, thinking it was funny.After a while he was relieved, and then he opened his mouth and shouted: "It's so hot!"So hot! Philip sent the vinegar over and said, "Drink it up!"This is hot! Without hesitation, Greene took it and swallowed it in one gulp. This time he really jumped up and yelled again: "It's so sour!"very sour! Everyone was arguing and making noise, and completely forgot tonight and what night!How different is my life from them?When have you ever been so happy?A good night is short, what about tomorrow?What about the day after tomorrow?These people are gone, Caroline is going too, what is left of me? Little Niko was woken up, and Philip said: "Little guy, don't worry, I won't forget you!" As he spoke, he dipped a little rice wine with his finger and put it in Nicole's mouth. Caroline stopped him and said: Didn't you hurt him? hurt him?Who told him to come into this world?To be a hippie? After saying this, everyone fell silent.It turned out that all the hippies who thought they were very chic, at this moment, they couldn't smile anymore. They left without a trace, only me, a meddlesome person, still retains this residual memory. On February 20, 1972, I decided to join their organization. Fortunately, I had nothing to worry about, and I didn't have much money.He quit his job and officially became a hippie amidst the laments of his friends. There happened to be a party the night I moved in, and there was a Brazilian hippie named Sarso, who was a peripheral protégé of Tony's, and he was there for free weed.There were also several disciples who took out all kinds of food from the dirty and black backpack and piled them in the middle of the carpet covered with newspapers. When I saw it, there were half-bitten dough cakes, powdered cakes, and deformed fruits.In short, even if it is picked up from the trash can, it is much more decent than these foods. I saw Caroline grab a handful, pick out some grass clippings and grains of sand, and start eating.I couldn't help asking in a low voice: Are these your usual foods? Do you think we can go to restaurants every day?Eat quickly, it's what they've been begging for. After the Buddha Sakyamuni became enlightened, he made a living by begging for alms bowls. It was based on the starting point that giving is more blessed than receiving, and he had no discrimination in his heart, minimized material desires, and set an example.It is said that the food that Living Buddha Jigong begged for, if there is no other people's saliva, he still thinks it is not delicious enough.These deeds seem ordinary, but when it was my turn, I realized that there were many psychological barriers formed by habits, which were difficult to get rid of. I also grabbed a handful, and there was actually a copper coin and a ball of cotton balls inside.After picking up the sundries, it tastes mixed, except for the occasional bite of sand, it is quite fragrant. Everyone was eating, and the pile of food immediately bottomed out.Then Charso moved to sit in the center of the carpet, opened his treasure bag, took out some hay, and crushed it into powder first.He then cut the newspaper into long strips, rolled them into cigarettes with grass powder, and put them beside him. His technique is extremely skilled, and his attitude is very careful.The only candle in the room was placed in front of him, drawing a long back and sticking it high on the roof.The others, including Neo, sat outside in a circle.Everyone was very quiet, watching intently, as if some ritual was going on. I wanted to ask Caroline, and when I turned around, she too was turned into a clay statue.I really don't understand, what kind of party is this?Seeing that Sarso's dress is a bit like an African indigenous wizard, is he doing something wrong?Everyone is possessed? He rubbed a total of ten roots, and Tony first said happily: There are two practitioners who joined our organization, and they just came to celebrate today. I couldn't bear it any longer, and quietly asked Caroline beside me: What is that? fool!That's marijuana! I have admired your name for a long time, so it turned out to be the case.Smoking marijuana is illegal in Brazil, can I get along with them?Obviously this is a bad thing, why do these people who claim to teach the truth still take the lead? Can I stop smoking?Obviously not, what should I do? Just as I was in a state of confusion, Ganger on the left had already passed one. I imitated others, put it in my mouth, and then passed it to Caroline on the right.She was an old hand, took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and remained motionless. After a while, the house was full of acrid smoke, much like the smell of wildfire burning mountains in the countryside. To me who was watching, this was really a wonderful sight: green smoke curled up in the empty room, and a dim candle raised a circle of light in the center of the room a few feet away.At the same time, streaks of moonlight permeated through the cracks in the roof, dyeing the intermittent smoke into strings of bright pearls.而在上下兩種情趣迥異的光芒交織處，沙爾索盤膝坐在中間，四周還有十來個雕像，圍成一個圓圈。 最妙的是，在他們之間，忽高忽低、時明時滅地，傳過幾點暗紅的火星。一時只見火星猛然上升，移向一處，稍停片刻。猛聞嗖地一聲，火星突放光明，生機陡現，照亮了一張神色迷茫的面孔。然後，火星又暗了，緩緩地落了下去。 最精采的還是沙爾索，他每次都把瘦小的肺吸得滿滿地，只見煙進，不見煙出。有一次，他好像要說話，口微微一張，一縷白煙悄悄地由嘴角溜了出來。他猛一睜眼，尖起嘴，對著那縷逃煙，毫不憐憫地使勁一吸。Whoosh!逃煙重回囹圄，沙爾索上身被鼓起的胸膛撐得活像一隻大蛤蟆。 不過幾分鐘，十支煙被抽得精光，連煙屁股都沒有放過。煙沒有了，人人臉上都掛著傻呼呼的笑容，好戲一一上場。東尼平日就很風趣，這時他把上衣脫掉，露出全身茸茸的細毛。然後，他走到全場中央，像是肚皮舞孃般，微圓的小肚子有韻律地搖晃著，又唱又跳。 沙爾索則是另一種調調，自言自語地一邊說，一邊笑得打滾。 有時東尼會突然停下來，想一想，又跳一跳。再不然，他便說些斷斷續續的笑話，我聽不懂，也可能沒有人懂，但總有人被逗得哈哈狂笑。那些笑聲也非常特別，時斷時續，常會像突然停電一般，笑容還掛在臉上，而聲音停了，人也凝固在時空中。 這還不說，有些人會莫明其妙地做一些無意義的動作，或者獨自痴痴地傻笑。我看看凱洛琳，她疲倦地瞇著雙眼，嘴角上永遠是那副慵懶而可愛的微笑，似乎對眼前的一切都無動於衷。 我試著問她：妳累了吧？ 她好像聽到了，以幾乎感覺不出的速度，緩緩地移動著眼珠。 良久，她的眸子停在我臉上，而眼光彷彿穿透了我的靈魂，一個字一個字從口中吐出來：我以為又停了一會兒，才繼續說：你走了 突然，一點寒星朝我這邊飛來，我忙躲過，原來是菲力丟的香煙頭。 我問：菲力！為什麼用香煙打我？ 他坐直了身體，迷惘地望著我。我再問一遍，他才慢慢地說：那裡有個窗子他竟然和凱洛琳一模一樣！ 等我再回過頭來，凱洛琳神態如故，微笑依然，完全封凍在某個時空中了。 我曾經醉過，知道神經麻痺時的那種感受，但是和眼前所見卻大大的不同。根據他們的行為來判斷，顯然吸食大麻後思緒不能連貫，行為也難以控制。我無法理解這種感受，除非我也遁入這片天地，親自去體驗一番。 人人都說麻醉品是毒物，吸食後很容易上癮而不能自拔。問題在我還有什麼好怕的呢？做了嬉皮，無異已與正常的人生訣別。誰都知道吸毒有害，而冒生命危險的比比皆是，其中必然有些不可抗拒的因素。姑不論我是為了凱洛琳或是追求真理，如果能找出毒品影響人生理、心理的因素，何嘗不是一件有意義的事呢？ 顯然沙爾索還沒有抽夠，他又點了一支。我乘機要了過來，學著他們，把肺裝得滿滿的。那種滋味很不好受，不僅辛辣無比，而且悶得發慌。吸到第三口時，四肢開始有點麻木，又好像感到胃中的食物在蠕動。 我強忍著再抽下去，漸漸地外界寂靜下來了，身體也似乎不再屬於我的了。 突然，一聲清脆的琴音跳進了我的心中，是那麼熟悉，而又那麼圓潤。 第二個音符又滑了進來，又溜了出去，啊原來是我飛上了 突然地一震，我驚醒過來。是沙爾索在要煙，手已經不是我的，機械般把煙送給他，誰的手還停在空中？真傻是我的？放下手又突然一震！任何一個變動都會隔了好久才想起來。 難怪要跳東尼很有藝術天才是我嗎？我在幹嘛？抽大麻凱洛琳她呢？我急了，猛一回頭，又是一驚!她還那種微笑凱洛琳如果萬一我怕什麼呢？ 凱洛我喉中一發聲，又驚醒了一半，她怔怔地望著我，好美眼珠 What?她懶洋洋的聲音，又喚回了我，有什麼事誰有什麼是她對了，我在問她問什麼？如果如果我能 跟妳結婚是我在說話跟誰結婚？凱洛嗎？山坡上的音樂聲好清楚 What did you say?What?凱洛琳坐直了身子，妳說什麼？是問我？我說什麼我說音樂華格納的進行曲誰結婚？對了，我要和妳 結婚喉中又冒出一句話，是凱洛，我要把握艾洛伊莎結婚了 你瘋了瘋了多好早瘋就好了為什麼 不行她不去里約了？真的我要告訴她 好做一輩子嬉皮這就是人生嗎？ 一個誰說的我們分明是 兩個三個四 什麼時候睡著的，我已經不記得了。醒過來時，見凱洛琳踡曲著睡在我身邊，其他的人都不見了。想了又想，我慢慢地回憶起昨夜的荒唐對話，雖說是吸了大麻神智不清，可是那才是真心話。她會怎麼想呢？正如她說的，我瘋了，她總會原諒瘋子吧？ 過一會她也醒了，雙眼惺忪，像個小孩子般斜靠在牆邊。 我有點慚愧，問道：我昨夜抽多了，說了什麼嗎？ 你說了什麼？ 算了，話已說出，還能否認嗎？而且，向她表明心意有何不妥？她既然拒絕了，彼此心裡明白，至於後事如何，以後再說就是。