Chapter 8 Chapter 3 Nanjing 4

At three o'clock in the afternoon, when Xiaoye woke up from a nap, there was a knock on the door.Xin Mei opened it and saw Ye Xiuchun standing outside the door. Teacher Xin, Happy New Year to you. Xiaoye looked at Xinmei with a shy smile, with bulging black eyes like two dots.Her snow-white cheeks were frozen like bright red rose petals by the wind. Don't dare to take it, Xiaoye, come in and sit down. Xin Mei gave up her room to the students and introduced them to the freshmen.Even the children came running to meet the guests. Why are you the only one?Tao Lian stared at the guest and asked.My mother said many people come, look, so much sugar!

He stood on tiptoe and pointed to the sweets on the chest of drawers to show the visitor. Eat sugar, eat sugar! Xin Mei hurriedly invited the students to eat candy, and at the same time grabbed a handful for Tao Lian, hoping to plug his bird's beak. It was cold, and everyone hid in the dormitory to read.Xiaoye explained awkwardly. It's cold, and I'm afraid to go out.Xin Mei agreed. Freshmen help to greet tea.After exchanging pleasantries, he found an excuse and led the two children into another room. It was the first time for Ye Xiuchun to come to the teacher's dormitory, so she couldn't help but look around curiously.She was also interested in the children, asking about their ages and where they were born, and kept praising Tao Lian for being tall.

Since the conversation at the gate of the printing factory, Xin Mei rarely saw Ye Xiuchun and Lin Weidong together.Before the big exam, Xiaoye's expression was unstable, and she was often in a daze in class. Xinmei suspected that the two had fallen out.Seeing Xiaoye today, she couldn't help asking. What's the matter with you and Lin Weidong? Xiaoye's doll-like eyelashes blinked, as if a little shy and hesitant.But she immediately looked at Xin Mei and said frankly: I just want to talk to Teacher Xin about this matter.Lin Weidong ignores me now. Are you arguing? Xiaoye shook her head in denial.According to her, Instructor Tian talked to Lin Weidong twice, and after that, he avoided her.

Instructor Tian also talked to me several times, asking me to continue writing letters to my ex-boyfriend.I tried and wrote more than one letter but it didn't work.My feelings are no longer with him.If I continue to write, it is tantamount to deceiving, deceiving him, and deceiving myself. Xin Mei listened to her talk and thought about her. Do you want to stop writing first, she finally suggested to Xiaoye to go back and see him once during the summer vacation.Sometimes when we meet each other, we don't need to say anything, and the relationship will naturally become harmonious.This is also common.

Xiaoye raised her eyebrows, tilted her head to one side, and looked suspicious. Hey, now even my parents are putting pressure on me.They told me to go back this Chinese New Year and clarify the matter, and get engaged first.I only reasoned that the time for the Spring Festival is short, and it is not good to travel back and forth, so I dare not blatantly refuse the engagement.Who knew that they asked someone to write a long letter to me, it was a critical article!The letter told me not to change my cultivation, and I would be soiled for one year, foreign for two years, and not recognize my father and mother for three years.Teacher Xin, I'm already twenty-three years old. Don't you know if you like someone or not?I just went back to see him now; of course I was as happy as seeing an old classmate or friend, but apart from that joy, I had no other feelings.

Xiaoye's tone of voice and the way she stared at Xin Mei showed infinite annoyance and irritability.Xin Mei felt her distress and felt sympathetic. Do you have deep feelings for Lin Weidong? When Lin Weidong was mentioned, Xiaoye's eyes immediately glowed. I really like him. Her tone was sincere and calm, and her eyes, which were burning like fire, implied calmness and firmness. I think Lin Weidong also likes me very much, she told Xin Mei confidently.We are together, even if we don't talk, we are very happy.We will be graduating next year. If our relationship can be settled down, we can fight to be together when assigning work.In fact, our meeting didn't affect the homework. Now I'm asked to write letters to people in my hometown, so it takes a lot of time!A letter takes a night.Teacher Xin, I sometimes think that going to college is not very interesting.

Xin Mei was surprised.Why, once you suffered a setback in love, did you shake your determination to study? Xiaoye lowered her eyes and said in a low voice: If you can’t be with the one I love, no matter how many books you study, it’s meaningless. The revolution is useless! Xin Mei was surprised and moved when she heard this confession, and couldn't help staring at Xiao Ye with admiration.She never expected that Xiaoye would be frank and brave to the point of deviant. Xiaoye suddenly softened again, and asked her in a tone of begging for help: Teacher Xin, what do you think I should do?

Xin Mei immediately warned herself in her heart: Be careful!You can only give tea and sympathy to students, never give them advice! But Xiaoye's undisguised baby face broke Xin Mei's fragile defense. Of course you have to follow your feelings, she replied without hesitation.Love is not pity!It is not equal to politics, and cannot be used for charity or trading. Teacher, you have spoken to my heart! Xiaoye stared at Xinmei gratefully, her eyes were shining brightly, as if they were twinkling with tears. When she came, she was shy and hesitant, but when she left, she looked cheerful and full of confidence.On the contrary, Xin Mei has added something to her mind for no reason.

Not good, freshmen!She confessed like a Catholic sinned: I encouraged her to pursue love, just the opposite of the political instructor!If it is exposed in the future, it will be a big crime! After Xinxin heard what happened to Xiaoye, his face darkened.Seeing that Xin Mei was too remorseful, he still comforted her: I've said everything, forget it, don't think about it.We are doomed to regret forever, Amei.If you speak your mind, of course you will regret it; if you don’t tell the truth, you will feel sad and also regret it.The only way to survive is not to talk, to ignore any nonsense.

This analysis is correct, Xin Mei knows, but unfortunately she can't do it.She only prayed that Xiaoye would not be ruthless in the future and sell herself out.Her heart skipped a beat when she recalled the three crimes listed by the freshman in my self-criticism.If I speak so impulsively, if something happens in the future, there are more than three things? If something happens to me, get out now!She prayed silently in her heart.It is better for the couple to go to purgatory together to suffer together, so that every time one has something to do, the other will suffer with him, which invisibly prolongs the time of torture.If something really happens, it's not difficult to deal with. It needs to be shut down and managed. Anyway, it's simple and clear to accept it.What she felt most terrible was this feeling of fear of making mistakes.The doubt and anxiety caused by the uncertainty about the future are the most devastating to the body and mind.

The three-day spring break was spent in a muddle.Then the next semester starts, and the monotonous and busy teaching career is repeated. The first weekly foreign language meeting is to study the classics of Marxism-Leninism, and continue to study the Criticism of the Gotha Program that was opened last semester.I have been reading this book for two months and I am only halfway through.Every time the practice is to read a paragraph, and then everyone discusses this paragraph. Today, after Wang Degui finished reading a paragraph, he suddenly asked a question: Who is this Gotha? Xin Mei was startled when she heard this question. Who is Gotha?She repeated in shock.Gotha is not the name of a person, but a place name! Everyone was surprised.The team leader frowned and snorted: Is it a place name?Then, he tilted his head and made an appearance of thinking seriously. What a place name!Guo Yingsheng suddenly shouted out as if he had found a treasure.Look at the notes at the bottom of this page! Everyone lowered their heads to search. At this time, the door was pushed open from the outside, and Master Luo poked his head in. Who is Comrade Xin Mei?Please come to the office. Xin Mei responded.She walked out of the teaching and research group and followed Master Luo all the way, feeling uneasy, not knowing what happened. Master Luo is called a master, but in fact he has existed in name only.He was originally a worker, but was promoted to a cadre in the early 1950s, and then joined the party.Afterwards, he specialized in personnel and administrative work and became a sharp and experienced cadre.After entering the water yard, he regarded himself as a worker and liked to be called Master Master. He was only forty years old, so he fit the name of the Workers Propaganda Team, so he was qualified to lead everything.He also deliberately dressed sloppily for this purpose. I don't know where to find a patch?The patched trousers, and the very good jacket were also conspicuously pasted at the elbows with a patch of different color.However, as long as you look at his moody face, suddenly full of spring breeze, and suddenly cold as ice, none of the teachers can't understand that this is an old fox who can't beat him. Stepping into the office of the department, Xin Mei found a middle-aged man with a strange face sitting inside.He was wearing a cadre uniform made of good materials, holding a stuffed briefcase with both hands, and a serious smile on his face!There is a compulsive prestige.Master Luo introduced him, and told Xin Mei that he was a comrade from the Foreign Affairs Department without mentioning his name, which made Xin Mei even more mysterious and curious. Sit, sit, Comrade Xin.How are you at home?Does the child go to kindergarten? Following the usual practice, Master Luo first expressed his concern for the lives of his subordinates. Xin Mei took a seat opposite him, and at the same time answered politely. Do you know Wei Ming?Master Luo suddenly said something out of bounds. Wei Ming?Xin Mei froze for a moment, then realized that this was her fellow student from middle school and university.She spoke out about the relationship. Have you been in touch with him?Master Luo continued on. No. What about in America? In the early 1960s, I saw it a few times. What was the political landscape like back then? He engages in Taiwan independence. Hearing Taiwan independence, Master Luo let out a bah, and with a wave of his hand, it seemed that he could easily bury it. Mr. Wei Ming loves the motherland very much now and supports socialism enthusiastically, he told Xin Mei.Recently, our government invited him to return to China for a visit, to visit various places, and he is in Nanjing these days.He wants to meet you.Comrades from the Foreign Affairs Office came here to contact this matter, to see if you want to see him. Xin Mei knew by feeling that the people from the foreign affairs department had been watching her.Hearing that he was mentioned, she finally had the courage to tilt her head and look him in the eye, and the latter was really engrossed in waiting to see her answer. Before she could speak, Master Luo went on to say: Mr. Wei Ming has a short time to visit China, and there are too many projects to visit!His itinerary is very tight, only tonight is a little free, and he will leave Nanjing early tomorrow.Think for yourself and see if you need to see him. Hearing this tone, Xin Mei clearly did not encourage her to see Wei Ming, and felt disgusted in her heart.She thought: I am not as talkative as Tao Xinsheng, I am at your mercy! Since Wei Ming wants to see me, let's meet. She emphasized Wei Ming, saying that she was passive. Master Luo disagreed.As for foreign guests, wherever they go, they always like to visit relatives and friends, and they also collect all kinds of information. This is their common characteristic.As for whether we can see or not, it is all our freedom, there is no need to force it. Wei Ming is my fellow countryman and classmate. It is great that he can embark on the road of socialism. I also want to see him very much. This time, Xin Mei's tone was unambiguous. Master Luo groaned.Then he exchanged glances with the people in the Foreign Affairs Office, and immediately changed his tone. OK!Time to meet him!Now he spoke decisively.You have been back to China for many years, and you have performed very well. You have been praised for everything in class and labor. You should let foreign guests come and see for themselves!See you tonight.So what time do we meet? Only then did the foreign affairs staff speak. It's eight o'clock.We will accompany him. OK, see you at eight!Master Luo showed excitement after the deal was completed.It is also a glorious revolutionary task to have the opportunity to publicize to the outside world, and each of our comrades must earnestly perform this task! Having said that, he leaned forward especially and took good care of Xin Mei: You must pay attention to other policies at home and abroad, especially the concept of confidentiality must not be lost.As for foreign guests, we don't have to tell them everything. Of course, we have to engage in a united front when dealing with foreign guests, but we also need to be strategic.We absolutely welcome an active and progressive person like Mr. Wei, and we should introduce the prosperity and progress of the country to him. Xin Mei nodded obediently in agreement. How many rooms are there in your house?Foreign affairs personnel suddenly interrupted.Do you have your own toilet? Xin Mei told the truth. The other party seemed worried, and discussed with Master Luo in a low voice.Master Luo nodded, and then said to Xin Mei: Let's go to your house to have a look, you don't have to attend the study in the afternoon, go back and tidy up the house. So Xin Mei greeted Xiao Mai, and then led the two back to the dormitory.The foreign affairs officer carried a briefcase under his arm.He just stood in the aisle, looking at the furniture of the Tao family with a slightly reserved look.Master Luo inspected the two rooms, and finally put his hands on the armchair in front of the desk. OK.He was generally satisfied, and singled out the faults of the chairs, saying: The whole family only has one armchair and one stool, so there are not enough seats for the guests, right?That's all right, I'll ask the school to send two of them later. Xin Mei hates pretense and hypocrisy the most.She remembered Fangzheng's family's experience of receiving foreign guests, and she was very afraid that she would have to carry two chairs back after the guests left. No need, Master Luo, she hastily declined.I'll just borrow two from my neighbors. Master Luo nodded in agreement, and after a few more words of advice, he left with the foreign affairs staff. Grandma was very nervous when she heard that foreign guests were coming. Do I want to stay?she asked Xin Mei. don't want.It was a fellow villager and an old classmate, and he left after chatting for a few words, without any fuss. At dusk, Xinsheng returned with Tao Lian.He carried a thick and solid wooden chair with a back on his shoulders, and it took a lot of effort to bring the chair into Xin Mei's room. Master Luo insisted that I bring back a chair.He put down his chair and complained: I am afraid that foreign guests think we only have one too shabby!Hmph, Wei Ming used to be a big Taiwan independent, but now he has changed, and he is a big leftist again. It's worth not to see such a person! A freshman, Xin Mei said with condescension, he is from my hometown and an old classmate, I also want to inquire about my parents!Not a leftist, who can visit China now? I'm sorry, Amei, the freshman immediately apologized: I forgot that he is your fellow countryman. In the evening, they cleaned up the housework very early and put Tao Ye to bed before eight o'clock.Tao Lian also washed his hands and feet, and went to bed after seeing Uncle Wei.After eight o'clock, there was no sign of the foreign guests.At nine o'clock, Tao Lian fell asleep again and again, and his head kept falling down. Xin Mei had no choice but to send him to bed too. The freshman sat on the bed and yawned.This kind of foreign guest is so unpunctual!If you don't come, you should say it, so that people can go to sleep. Xin Mei was both apologetic and annoyed that Wei Ming was not punctual. The longer she waited, the angrier she became, she pouted and walked around the room freely.The open space was originally small, but now that there are more chairs, there is hardly any room left for walking.She suddenly opened the curtains and took a look outside. Most of the houses had turned off the lights.On the contrary, the street lamps are shining with a yellowish light, accompanying a corner of the crescent in the sky, and guarding the silent earth with each other. Finally, there were chaotic footsteps downstairs, mixed with human voices. Here they come! Xin Mei ran to open the door and turned on the light in the stairwell. Sure enough, Wei Ming carried a James Gang-style streamlined suitcase, and was accompanied by two cadres upstairs. Oh, Xinmei!Sorry, sorry, late! He adjusted his gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, and immediately yelled loudly. Xin Mei politely said it was okay, and immediately invited three people in, but the two accompanying cadres refused.One of them came to the house to observe during the day.He shook hands with Xin Mei warmly, with a smile on his face, as if they were old acquaintances. Meet your old classmates and have a good talk!He said generously: We don't bother.I just hope it won't be too late. Mr. Wei will go to Shanghai early tomorrow morning.The driver of the car was waiting at the door of the dormitory. After the instructions were finished, the two cadres waved and left. Xinxin talked to Wei Ming about the past and let him into the room. Cough, Xin Mei, you are busy people, so hard to see! As Wei Ming said, he put the box under the desk and took off his long coat. Don't take it off, Wei Ming.Xin Mei hurriedly tried to dissuade them, since the temperature inside and outside the house is the same, so no one is willing to take off their coats. I have to take it off, I wear too much, I walk like that Beijing duck!He took off his cashmere coat, and Xin Mei took it and put it on the bed rail.Sure enough, Wei Ming wore a lot of clothes. His upper body was a blue cotton padded jacket that is common in China, and his lower body was a pair of loose blue cloth pants. He probably bought them after returning to China.The black leather shoes on his feet are not only shiny, but also have half-high heels.Xin Mei stared at it curiously, imagining that foreign shoes are also popular for equality between men and women.Wei Ming was short and fat, and the high heels didn't seem to make him look much taller. I haven't seen you for a few years, you've put on weight, Old Wei.The freshman looked at Wei Ming's double chin and said with a smile. No way, I go on a diet every day in the United States! As Wei Ming said, he touched his oily cheeks regretfully, and then looked down at his swollen belly under the padded jacket. The food in your country is so good!After eating all the way from Beijing, I gained more than three pounds! Meeting an old friend in a foreign land feels very cordial, and Xin Mei is only happy to see Wei Ming.The unpleasant memories caused by the arguments and arguments in the United States have long since been forgotten.She asked him to sit down at the table and served him tea. Why is it hard for us to see each other?she asked with a smile.Inform us in the afternoon and wait at home from eight o'clock in the evening until now. Well, when I arrived in Beijing two weeks ago, I asked to see you.When I arrived in Nanjing three days ago, they said they were in contact, and that Xinmei was very busy teaching, so they kept procrastinating.Last night, I was in a hurry and decided not to visit the Yangtze River Bridge today, but to find your school by myself.It turned out they had already arranged for the evening.It just so happened that the Jiangsu Provincial Party Committee gave me a farewell party. We started eating at seven o'clock, with more than a dozen dishes, and when it was finished, there were fruit snacks. I looked at my watch, and it was nine o'clock.sorry Sorry!Are you busy teaching? Xin Mei exchanged glances with the freshmen.In accordance with other instructions from inside and outside, she could not tell the foreign affairs personnel's attempt to obstruct their meeting, so she reluctantly nodded. I was teaching, and Lao Tao was working on teaching material reform. Great!You've all changed a lot, but Xin Mei's short haircut is the same as when she was in elementary school.Domestic women don't dress up, which is really a good custom and saves manpower and material resources.I must bring this point to the United States to spread the word!Hey, after talking for a long time, I forgot a big thing.You all joined the party, right? Before he heard the answer, he lowered his head and took out a pad and pen from the pocket of his cotton-padded jacket. Xin Mei pursed her lips and looked at the new student with a smile.The new student grinned wryly, and suddenly turned his face away, too lazy to answer. How old are you in the party?Wei Ming straightened the pen and paper, waiting to be recorded. Wei Ming, are you so unfamiliar with the domestic situation?Xin Mei asked sympathetically.With a background like ours, don't ever want to join the party for the rest of your life! real? Wei Ming was more disappointed than doubted. Xin Mei, you are from a true proletarian background! Xin Mei suppressed a smile and said: Don't mention any class background, once a person goes to the United States to study, he is poisoned, and the proletariat has become a bourgeoisie!It's too late for ideological remolding, how dare you talk about joining the party?If you want to join the party, it is best to join in the United States, and it will be harder than going to heaven when you come back! I'd like to think about this.Wei Ming's expression became serious and serious.You are a Taiwanese with such a good background, the government should take it seriously.When I go back to Beijing, I must report it to them! Xin Mei quickly said no.If you have time, you should take a look at the real life in China, old Wei. Which unit invited you back to China?The new student inserted a mouth at this time.How long can you stay? The State Department agreed for a month. Wei Ming talked about the fact that he was invited to visit, with a smug look on his face.I spent a week in Beijing, saw many places of interest, and also visited the Lugouqiao Commune, the Capital Steel Plant, the Great Hall of the People, and the Military Museum.Then I went to Jinan and visited the Daming Lake described in Laocan's travel notes.Daming Lake is really beautiful, and the fish there are very delicious.Your Nanjing is the third stop, followed by Shanghai and Hangzhou.Then I flew back to Beijing to meet Qiao Guanhua.If you have free time, go to Shaoshan, otherwise go out from Guangzhou.One month is too short a time!Like the Northeast and Northwest, they can't spare time to visit, so they have to wait for the next time. Xin Mei smacked her lips a few times when she heard his travel arrangements, she was almost jealous with envy.She didn't know what great achievements Wei Ming had made in foreign countries. The government did not hesitate to spend the blood and sweat of the people, sending cadres to accompany him on tours around the mountains and rivers, and entertaining him with big feasts.Just as he was speaking, the smell of alcohol spewed out. When I come back this time, what do you think is the biggest gain?Meet Premier Zhou! Xin Mei and Xin Xin were taken aback, and looked at him with admiration for the first time. The Prime Minister invited me to have supper in the middle of the night one day! When Wei Ming said this, he was so excited that he couldn't sit still, and suddenly stood up, which greatly increased the weight of this supper. What did you talk to him about?Xin Mei asked impatiently. Talk about anything!Talk about the Taiwan issue, the current situation in the United States, and the whereabouts of overseas students!It took two hours and five minutes before and after the meeting.Ah, I'm so touched!When I go back, I must write an article to commemorate this interview. He kept shaking his head, as if he still couldn't quite believe his good luck.He waited until the glory of the memories faded before he sat down again. You have been back for so many years, he asked the freshmen with concern, have you traveled all over the country? Xin Mei almost jumped up.When she thought of going to Shaoshan in Xiaxia and being rejected by the chief of staff, she felt angry again.Just as she was about to take the opportunity to have a fit and mock it, the freshman answered her classmate calmly. We are so busy with work and study that we don't have time to travel.This kind of sightseeing can only be hoped when we enter a real communist society. Exactly, exactly.Wei Ming expressed his sincere conviction. The freshmen want to smoke, and take out a pack of Xiangyang cards to respect the guests.Wei Ming was modest, saying that he was used to smoking his own cigarettes.He thought of a gift, bent down quickly, opened the suitcase, and took out a pack of chocolate candies, saying it was for Xin Mei's child.Then he took out a pack of Camel cigarettes from the pocket of his padded jacket, and firstly respected the freshmen. I can't get used to smoking foreign cigarettes now.The freshman shook his head and declined. So the two drew their own.Wei Ming asked about the details of their lives, including wages, food expenses, rent, nannies, labor insurance benefits, etc., and wrote them down in the notebook. Xin Mei waited for him to catch his breath, and hurriedly asked how he was doing.Wei Ming said that he works in a big bank in New York, is married and has two children.He immediately took out some color photos and showed them to Xin Mei.Wei Ming originally studied law, but changed his career to studying economics after he came to the United States. Now he is doing well, and he has everything in bungalows and cars.Xinmei asked him about the current situation of her hometown in Nantou. Unfortunately, he had been away from Taiwan for ten years and was always involved in political waves. He did not dare to return to Taiwan or write letters. He knew nothing about her parents' whereabouts.This disappointed her greatly. However, I am still very clear about the political economy of my hometown, so he hastened to add explanations.I often write articles in leftist magazines criticizing the current situation in Taiwan, of course using a pseudonym. The freshman squinted at him, a little confused about the content of those critical articles.Xin Mei was not interested in asking questions, but after ten years of separation, Wei Ming was able to become an expert on Taiwan issues, and she felt that it was not easy.Xin Mei would not be surprised if he became an expert on China issues after returning to the United States this time. Wei Ming is full of enthusiasm for China, and he has been moved by what he has seen and heard since returning to China.Wherever he went, he copied all the materials provided by the reception staff, and filled at least one small notebook every day.He opened the box and showed it to the newborn couple, and it was indeed full of notebooks.He especially believed in the achievements of the Cultural Revolution, in the happiness and contentment of the people. I am a law student, and the most important thing is objectivity and evidence.Of course there is publicity, where is there no publicity?America itself is a propaganda machine!You have personally experienced the climax of the Cultural Revolution, and I would like to know what you think of this movement. Xin Mei looked at the freshman, neither of them knew how to answer. After a while, Xin Mei considered her words and said in an open-minded tone: In my opinion, the Cultural Revolution was a great destruction. Oh Wei Ming?With a cry, he immediately lowered his head and wrote it down. The freshman forgot to smoke, and stared at Xin Mei with big eyes, thinking she was crazy. Now that the big construction is starting, Xin Mei immediately went on to say.This is in accordance with the revolutionary law guided by Chairman Mao: if there is no destruction, there will be no establishment; How many times have you endured criticism? Wei Ming's tone seemed to be something commonplace to criticize.When he knew that the new couple had never been quarreled, he couldn't help expressing his regret. Many of our colleagues have been quarantined for review.Xin Mei intends to fulfill him. When she said this, she deliberately avoided her husband's eyes.She knew that she had violated a taboo, and the consequences might be unimaginable, but she was so full of breath in her stomach that she was uncomfortable, and she had to relax a little to relieve the pressure. Xin Mei took Li Yongzhong as an example in her heart, and tried her best to lightly disclose the situation of the intellectuals being punished to Wei Ming.Wei Ming wrote vigorously, repeatedly promising not to reveal the source of the news. Xinsheng frowned, and frequently gave Xin Hai winks.Seeing her insistence on going her own way, he could only sigh secretly. As soon as Wei Ming stopped writing, the freshman immediately asked him: You have studied law, what do you think of our judicial system? Xin Mei hastily added: Do you think we have a judicial system? This is a problem, Wei Ming lost his pen and scratched his hair in embarrassment. I have thought about these issues, and he nodded repeatedly when he said it, expressing that he has not forgotten his line of work, and he also talked about it once in Beijing.This involves too much, so I can only say this: China currently lacks a sound judicial system.As Xin Mei said just now, it is clear that the units detaining people on their own are suspected of violating human rights.From another perspective, though, this may be evidence of what I've heard about the crowd attending the trial.This is not necessarily a bad Western judicial system is a set of cumbersome philosophy, and it is nothing more than a trick to deceive people.China is so big and has so many people, so we can't be too demanding.I heard that your street organizations are also responsible for investigation and trial, which is a characteristic of New China. Yeah?Xin Mei didn't think so.This is the same as asking the people to expose and report. It is a continuous insurance system that has existed since ancient times and is common to both China and foreign countries. She bit the skin of her lip, and finally did not say that it was an autocratic means. Wei Ming didn't want to talk about the law. After a few vague words, he asked the freshmen about their experience in the May 7th Cadre School.He listened to the freshman's brief narration with relish, smacking his lips and nodding his head from time to time to express his admiration. It is a good thing for intellectuals to work for three months every year! Wei Ming enthusiastically expressed his opinion: That's about the same as we take a month off every year in the US.At that time, everyone will travel by car and play more tired than going to work, which requires physical labor.But we only spend money on vacation and don't produce it! The freshmen were stunned when they heard this metaphor.But he quickly put his head down and smoked silently by himself.Xin Mei raised her eyebrows, a little dumbfounded.Some people actually compare the forced labor of intellectuals to American-style travel and vacation. Although it is completely different, it is also a great idea.It wasn't that Wei Mingzuo was amazing, she thought, it was that she was too backward, or there was a gap in understanding between them. She wondered how Wei Ming became so fast. What patriotic work are you doing in America right now?She asks her classmates for advice. Propaganda, automatic propaganda for the motherland.We gave lectures and published magazines. The biggest thing we did last time was the movement to defend the Diaoyutai. Wei Ming spoke excitedly about his political activities, how he had agitated propaganda, debated with pro-Government students, and how he evaded detection by the FBI.These activities are tense, active, and full of thrills.This made Xinmei worry. The United States has not yet established diplomatic relations with China. If you act so left and visit the mainland again, will it affect your safety or residency? Wei Ming smiled heartily. Hey, Nixon took the lead and opened the door for everyone. How can there be any risk?Of course, then again, compared with yours at that time, our struggle strategy today can be said to have undergone some revisions.Revolution, first of all, is to preserve strength.It is an objective need to protect ourselves first, and we will never put ourselves in an embarrassing situation.For example, I received an invitation from the State Council last year, and I remained calm.Until mid-January, I got my U.S. citizenship, and the next day I applied for a passport to come to the mainland.The U.S. State Department, plus the FBI, have nothing to do with me! Xin Mei took a breath and couldn't help admiring him.The new students are like wood, expressionless. When Lao Tao held a reading club in the past, some people donated the whole month's part-time income.This is of course respectable, but it is only a moment of bloody courage.We are not going to engage in such left-leaning childish actions now.Be like me, and definitely strive for the unification of Great China!But this work is long-term, so it must be treated calmly.For example, the number of deposits in my bank has always maintained four figures. In the United States, this is an indispensable symbol of safety and guarantee of life.If you want to donate money to patriotic activities, I can afford to donate 100 yuan, but I only donate 50 yuan. It is not stingy to keep a hand, it is a long-term plan! Xin Mei sat upright and listened, and couldn't help but gasped at this moment.As the saying goes, after three days of farewell, she looked at him with admiration. She really squinted her eyes and looked at this new leftist in the 1970s.The freshman also looked at the guest coldly with a half-smile. The room fell silent, and the host and guest had nothing to say for a moment, each silently smoking their cigarettes.Xin Mei found that the guest had run out of water, so she got up to fill his glass again. In the smoke, the freshman spoke first. Old Wei, do you plan to return to China to settle down? Wei Ming shook his head generously and refused. There are many things that can be done abroad, and things always have to be done, right?You are engaged in socialist construction at home, and we are doing public opinion propaganda abroad, and everyone just divides labor and cooperates.Of course, one day we will be back. Speaking of this, he lowered his voice for the first time, and confessed his heart to them very confidantly. This is the downside of our long stay in the US, as Xin Mei said just now, we are poisoned!I'm afraid I won't be able to adapt to the way of life here when I come back.In addition, my wife, even my lover, can't bear the hardships. Without a dishwasher and a washing machine, it is tantamount to killing her!There is no way, I can't change her mind for a while, so I can only take it slowly, right? Xin Mei smiled but did not answer. I will tell her about your performance when I go back, so that she can also receive an education! Xin Mei heard enough of his confession, and immediately changed the subject: Fangzheng and Liu Yanan, do you know each other? Wei Ming immediately became excited: I heard it!They apply to go abroad, do you know? Before Xin Mei could open her mouth, the freshman rushed to answer: I don't know, I don't know at all! Cough, you are friends, you should persuade them! From Wei Ming's mouth, Xin Mei learned that several friends in the United States had heard the news that Fang Zheng's family insisted on going out. When they met friends who came back for sightseeing, they would sue, and the impact was very bad!It is said that you are not used to life, and you have only come back not long ago, how do you know that you will not be able to get used to it in the future?Don't you live well?Of course, there are hardships in China, and there are shortcomings in the United States, too!They also said that China has no legal system, no democracy, no human rights Do you think Chinese people enjoy human rights?Xin Mei couldn't help interrupting. Wei Ming was suddenly at a loss for words, and immediately turned his face, and said decisively: "It hasn't existed for thousands of years, so why must it exist now?"If you study history, you know better than me that there is no totalitarian politics in the Holy Dynasty.With such a large population and backward science, it would be strange if there is no dictatorship and a mess!For the prosperity of the country, individuals must make sacrifices, right?Fish and bear's paw can't have cum wow!Freedom and human rights don't make much sense to me if I don't have enough to eat, right? This theory made Xin Mei speechless.She sat up straight and rubbed one ear with her hand, wondering what she had missed.Ten years ago, when Wei Ming advocated Taiwan's independence, his slogan was freedom and democracy.The times have progressed, but he only thinks of bread!What hurt her eardrums the most was Wei Ming's tone of voice: he put himself out of the way, as if the 800 million people were humble and backward, didn't understand, and therefore didn't deserve to enjoy freedom and democracy; You should be so grateful that you shouted long live.This is really the biggest insult to the Chinese people! Thinking of this, she suddenly rushed up with anger, her chest was like a surging river, wishing she could roar loudly and teach him a lesson.Freshmen are no better off than she is.He ignored Wei Ming, and fixed his eyes on the portrait of Mao Zedong on the wall, his two eyebrows almost twisted into one. Wei Ming, you just said that there are shortcomings and mistakes in the country, and Xin Mei finally reminded him, then you should stand up and criticize.Blindly singing praises will not help! How can we be ashamed to criticize?For the first time, Wei Ming's slender and fair face showed a look of shame, and the noise automatically dropped to eight levels.It has been built with hard work for more than 20 years, and we have not added a brick or tiled it, and we have not sweated it. Of course, we are not qualified to criticize it, right? Xin Mei didn't answer, but bit her lip to suppress the words that were about to come out of her tongue: Then you are not entitled to enjoy the blood and sweat of the people! They come, the security.Wei Ming picked up the topic of Fangzheng going abroad again.If Fangzheng and the others go out again, not only will the country's reputation be damaged, but they will also suffer losses.Is it okay to go out?Now the world is in a recession, unemployment is everywhere, and you all know about inflation.America is no longer paradise!Doctors are flying all over the place, and they can't find a job; they go to restaurants to wash dishes, and gas stations sell a lot of oil!China is the country that truly guarantees life Xin Mei let him speak for himself and stopped contradicting him.Going back a few years, like in the United States, she must have had a big argument with him. Since she was a classmate, she has always argued with Wei Ming, and she has never shared the same goals.Wei Ming, her, and Yang Yiyong from Nantou, the three of them were admitted to National Taiwan University in the same year.When he was at National Taiwan University, Yang Yiyong always sided with Xin Mei and fought against Wei Ming.It wasn't until she went to the United States that Xin Mei became alone. Wei Ming's father originally owned 200 Jia of land and was a medium-sized landlord.After the 375 rent reduction and land-to-tillage policies were implemented, the land was exchanged for a batch of stocks for him.以後幣制貶值，股票形同廢紙，家道便中落。這是魏明痛恨國民黨的基礎。他搞臺獨，辛梅便曾諷刺他是想捲土重來，好重當大地主。楊義勇的父親是小學校長，二二八事件中被捕槍殺，他母親就回到草屯鄉下種田，含辛茹苦把他撫養大。楊義勇與國民黨勢不兩立，因此一離開臺灣就加入了臺獨組織。他和辛梅辯論是講理論，不像魏明動輒給她扣帽子，說她贊同臺灣是中國領土的一部分是臺灣人的叛徒。 今天，魏明倒是不再亂拋帽子，可是高調越唱越有勁，不過換個曲譜而已。 午夜了，魏明熄滅了手中的菸，依依不捨地起身告辭。 你有楊義勇的消息嗎？辛梅問起老同學。 兩年不來往了。魏明言下很遺憾。他還在搞臺獨。 怎麼，你們不是一起向左轉？ 嗨，老楊的頑固就別提了！左轉？對，也算左轉他是臺獨裏面的左派分子。 魏明一壁穿大衣，一壁嘴裏嘖嘖感嘆著，似乎對童年的朋友無限惋惜。 臺灣獨立是一場春夢了！他又一次壓低了嗓門向辛梅說。中共一進入聯合國，美國和日本不再敢支持，臺獨只好垮掉！識時務者為俊傑，可是楊義永不但抱著臺獨不放，還打出社會主義的旗號！你說，要命不要命？你不打社會主義旗號，不但臺灣，連中共都拉攏你。一喊社會主義，這邊馬上把你視作眼中釘！老楊的花崗石腦袋呀，沒辦法！ 他的政治嗅覺確是不如你靈敏。辛梅點頭同意。你是我們國內所說的變色龍，永遠跟得上形勢和潮流。 魏明得意地笑了，雙下巴折疊得更突出。他提起手提箱，正想問變色龍的含意，但新生已經拿來手電筒，示意要送他出宿舍。他只得和辛梅在他們家門口握別。 你們這一對表現得好！我一定把你們的成就帶給美國的朋友們，不信的叫他們自己來看！辛梅不像以前那樣雄辯滔滔，但是行動勝過雄辯，你們的成就和表現便是走對道路的最好證明你們已經成了歸國留學生的樣板！我會給你們寫信，今後要多多連絡。 送走客人，辛梅虛掩上了門，先大大吐一口氣。一屋子的烟味燻得她頭腦發脹，而心口卻像燒乾的鍋，焦燥得要冒煙了。她趕緊拉開窗簾，打開一扇窗子來通風。宿舍裏的燈火全滅了，連南師也是一片黑暗。月牙兒被雲遮住，外頭一片昏天黑地。她深深吸了幾口寒冷但是新鮮的空氣。 須臾，新生進門來。 這種外賓，我今後不想再見。 說著，他就去廚房倒水洗腳。 辛梅慚愧地附和了一聲，把窗子輕輕又關上。她清理桌上的茶杯和菸灰碗，發現魏明抽剩的一包駱駝牌沒帶走。毫不遲疑地，她把菸和菸灰都倒進廢紙簍內。脫衣上床時，她才感到自己像挑過什麼重擔子，累得渾身都發酸脹痛。 魏明來訪後的第三天，新生中午回來時，臉上表情奇怪，好像苦苦思索著什麼難題，神情透著困惑。礙著老太太，辛梅不好打聽，心裏窮打鼓。飯後午睡時，新生特地去關上了房門，自動掏出心事來。 阿梅，我的檢查通過了。 real?辛梅喜得叫出來︰好哇！你這下沒事啦！ 她張開雙臂抱住新生的肩膀，傻傻地笑起來。陽光爬進窗口，照得一屋子明亮。多少日子來積壓的愁雲慘霧，一下子被驅逐得無影無蹤。她覺得自己輕飄飄的，只想在地板上跳舞一番。 但新生卻沒有一點欣喜的表示，好像檢查通過的事與他無關。 你怎麼不開心呢？辛梅搖著他的肩膀問。 他連忙掙扎出一朵笑容來︰我當然高興。總算過了一關，暫時喘口氣吧！ 聽他的語氣，似乎還期待著第二回。辛梅不喜歡這種悲觀論調，連忙拿話岔開。 誰批准你的檢查，你知道嗎？ 他輕輕搖下頭，又聳聳肩，似乎被誰批准都無所謂。 駱師傅早上通知我，系裏對我的檢查很滿意，認為符合鬥私批修的要求，達到自我批評的目的。他要我先回去編教材，並準備秋天開課。 丈夫不但政治上平安過了關，領導還要讓他上講臺。這變化太快也太大了，辛梅的歡喜和興奮多少攙雜些疑團。檢查這麼容易就通過經常是要一而再，再而三地受刁難不免使她有些驚訝。她忽然把它同外賓的來訪聯想在一起。但這只是一剎那的念頭，立刻就被排斥掉。她是絕不願再提魏明，以免丈夫聽了不舒服。 駱師傅還提到除夕夜樓下無理取鬧的事。聽那口氣，全校都知道我們挨了罵。他說群眾都批評樓下過分，又說我們沒有還嘴一句，很能克制。 不能克制又該怎麼樣呢？辛梅感到有些哭笑不得。留美回來就矮人三分，吵架的資格都沒有，連社會主義的寄生蟲都想騎在我們頭上！ 駱師傅說他要找樓下的談談，我趕緊說不必要。 是不必要，事情過去就算了。樓下要是以為我們拿領導去壓他，今後誤會更深！ 但是駱師傅仍嫌口頭安慰不夠。三月初的一個晚上，他忽然陪著參謀長光臨陶家。 陶家四口早吃過晚飯，但碗盤狼藉，還懶得去收拾。陶煉和陶冶棉鞋都沒脫就在媽媽的床上打滾，把枕頭踢落下床，連同積木，撒了一地。新生開門把客人向裏讓時，辛梅慌得一臂招呼，一臂做清道工作。她恨不得登時再長出兩隻手，好把飯桌上拾掇一下。 沒關係，沒關係！參謀長今天頗能體貼主婦的心理，大手擺了擺，表示不必拘禮。有孩子嘛，都是這樣。 他身軀高大，在房間裏一站，四周就沒有旁人走動的餘地。新生夫婦讓坐，他只當耳邊風，管自反剪了手，左張右看。辛梅想張羅茶水，卻被駱師傅悄聲制止，那神色並非客氣，倒像是怕打攪了參謀長的巡視。 生活上有什麼需要嗎？參謀長發出洪鐘般的聲音。 No.新生夫婦恭敬地回答。 床椅愛怎麼擺設，就怎麼擺設，駱師傅插了一句，舒適方便就行。 參謀長又問了幾個家常問題，然後點點頭，就和駱師傅走了。前後十分鐘不到，來去都突然，倒使夫婦倆納悶了好久。 很簡單嘛！何醫生後來解釋給他們聽：領導尤其是水院的第一把手光臨一下，就表示看重，是給你們挽回面子。樓下再不識相點，可是要他自己負責啦！ 何醫生的話不無道理，樓下果然不再敲打天花板。自從傳出辛梅有個外賓朋友，大家已經另眼相看了，如今陶家再被參謀長光臨，更加成為欽佩和羨慕的焦點。前一陣子的隔膜和冷淡忽然一掃而空，新生夫婦轉眼成了全校注目的對象。熟人先是含笑相迎，接著就親切地招呼起來；不熟的教工也會投來好奇和友善的眼光。連孩子也受到了鼓舞，陶煉就驕傲地說：媽媽，我們有外賓朋友，人家沒有！外賓什麼時候再來呀？ 辛梅知道自己一家又被集體所接納，不再孤立了。她體會到一種解脫了牢籠的輕鬆，但就是感受不到激動心弦的喜悅。這種沒有喜悅的感覺其實就是遺憾，而遺憾本身就是一股淡淡的悲哀。她先前還奇怪新生在檢查獲得通過時，何以沒有欣喜的表示，現在才明白，原來是一種曾經滄海難為水的清醒和哀傷。如今，政治上卸下了千斤擔，生活上有領導下顧關懷，一切可說平安順利了，但新生仍是落落寡歡，似乎清白和榮譽已和他不相干。辛梅不忍心去責備他這種孤僻頹唐的傾向，寧可耐心地期待著他有一天心情恢復。僅僅是目睹他經歷的這一場災厄，辛梅自己就失魂落魄過。新生是當事人，他的憂懼和失望更有甚於她，這心靈上的創傷只有時間才能治癒。他性格一向是堅定執著，她相信，假以時日，他會恢復從前的熱情和歡笑。 學生不知從哪裏得到消息，知道辛梅要去農場勞動。有一回，課堂上便有同學問她，能不能延期去，先把他們這學期的英語教完。她委婉地表示了自己走五七道路的決心，不願考慮變更行期。 小邁卻很快來找她商量。 小辛，你快別去農場啦！她尖著嗓子嚷，一隻手搭在辛梅肩上。我們需要你幫忙編教材哪！省委下達指示，要把教育革命欣欣向榮的面貌反映到新教材裏。這個任務可艱鉅呀，我們只有四位真正的英語教員，人手太少了，決定把你留下來協助搞教材。怎麼樣，小辛？ 辛梅不肯。她說：我兩年沒去農場了，好不容易撈到這個機會，哪能放過？農場我一定要去，並且已經安排妥當了家務，保證沒有一點後顧之憂。 小邁原以為免去辛梅的勞動任務，後者會感恩戴德，萬沒料到會遭拒絕。她立刻拍拍辛梅的肩膀，嘴裏笑嘻嘻地，親熱得只差沒把辛梅摟到懷裏。 good!小辛這麼熱愛勞動，真要表揚一番。不過，我們組需要你幫忙是真的。你繼續把課上完，同時幫忙編教材這套新教材就全靠你這位高手啦！這也是系裏的意思，不能把你說服留下來，我這個組長可要吃批評呢！ 辛梅偏不賣她的面子，任憑她快說破了嘴，也不讓步。小邁無奈，只好撤銷了來意，改口讚揚辛梅一番才了事。 新生，信不信由你，辛梅當天回家就興沖沖地告訴丈夫：我居然也可以不下去勞動呢！當然，我堅持了要去。 新生聽了有關小邁的敘述後，眉宇間流露出一份憎惡。 你去吧，他鼓勵辛梅，我們不要這種照顧！ 奶奶有些惋惜辛梅的固執脾氣，但她眼見陶家逐漸受重視，也打心裏歡喜起。 噯，有外賓做朋友是不錯！她對辛梅說。 辛梅笑笑，趕緊叫奶奶別再提起什麼外賓的事。 有一天下課，辛梅在校門口碰見小馬。他咧著嘴，故作驚訝地問：辛老師，你去農場勞動，還全校廣播哇？ Who said that?辛梅莫名其妙。 我們總務部門的人都在傳說，外語組組長不叫你去勞動，你打破了頭非搶著去不可。大家都在嘖嘖稱奇，每三個月輪換一批人下去，獨有你風頭最健，成了英雄似的！ 就是木頭人也聽得出小馬揶揄嘲笑的口氣。辛梅尷尬地笑笑，不好辯駁。她心裏很不恥小邁的作風，同是勞動，忽而強迫命令，忽而巴結吹捧，手段拙劣到傷人自尊心。她很清楚，如果為了教學和學生的利益著想，她真的延期去勞動，以後又可能成為話柄，說她是藉口抗拒勞動。勞動本是好事，現在竟弄得面目全非！ 她一路嘆息著回家來。 小邁把我要去農場勞動的事到處渲染，她進門就向新生訴苦，人家都在笑我把自己打扮成英雄，真是可惡！ 新生當場眉頭一緊，神色厭惡至極。但他仍是安慰妻子：只好忍受了，阿梅。現在又開始對臺統戰，總要吹捧臺灣人一場。三個月勞動很快就過去，你好好幹，家裏不用掛心。 讓新生一個人帶領兩個孩子過日子，她怎能不掛心？如果他有一點軟化的表示，她也肯順水推舟地延期去農場。但是他簡直比當事人還果決和頑固。辛梅想叫奶奶再住進來，他也不肯。不少教員是這樣的，女方出去勞動，男的就上班兼家務。新生不願意例外。 碰到晚上開會或者孩子生病，我會叫奶奶住進來，平時用不著，他堅持說。幾年在外奔波，現在有機會親自照料孩子，也是難得。 隨著行期逼近，辛梅對家人竟依依不捨。家務事做完，她必然逗著孩子們玩，還不時盯著丈夫瞧，好像要分離三個月，趁現在瞧個夠。 臨行的前夕，新生坐在地板上給孩子們講解小人書。辛梅一邊收拾自己的行李，一邊偷眼瞧他們父子。燈光下，新生的頭髮似乎有幾綹特別耀眼。她走近去細瞧，發現是白髮。 newborn!你幾時長了白頭髮？ 驚呼一聲後，她蹲下來，伸手就想給他拔掉。白髮雖然稀疏，卻是零星分散，這裏一綹，那裏兩根的，一時無法清除。 她的叫喊令新生一怔。他伸手去摸頭髮，但很快就放棄這個無意識的動作。 人遲早要老的，他不在乎地說，白頭髮要長就由它長吧。 辛梅沒有答腔，只是輕輕搖著頭，憐惜地撫摸他的頭髮。她想，你才三十七歲，怎麼就想到老呢？明明是這幾個月提心吊膽，才把人愁出白髮呀！她但願新生別老把事情憋在肚裏，加重了負擔。他如果能發洩出來，也許不至於愁得頭髮變白。想到丈夫的性情，她暗暗嘆氣。 你的檢查那麼快就通過，現在什麼事都沒有了，你要想開才好。她委婉地勸告丈夫。 我很想得開，你放心。生活在這樣的社會裏，無所謂擔心不擔心。客觀事實不以人的主觀意志為轉移，要擔心也無濟於事的。 新生的語氣頗為達觀，好像已經看透了整個社會，自有一套哲學可以應付它。辛梅有些疑慮參半，但看他神情平靜，比起冬天來確是不可同日語，也相信他有了改善。 我相信李永忠也會很快解放的。辛梅這樣說只是表達自己的願望，其實並無信心。 possible.新生的口氣倒不猶豫。光為了解放人力，也該給他定案。為了審查他一個人竟拖住了四五個得力的教員，人力上就不上算。而且，日夜地逼供，到底也沒有查出什麼罪狀，李永忠據說還是死硬得很。 阿桃不死也逃出去了，就是打死李永忠也沒有用，何況確實跟他無關。 現在棘手的也許是怎麼自圓其說。哼，當初把他打成階級敵人，簡直是殺無赦，我倒要看看如今怎麼定他的罪名！ 新生的嘴角因為說話激動而出現扭曲，看來像是在冷笑。他從來不曾冷嘲熱諷過人，這個表情不免叫辛梅詫異。他怨懟的口吻和他剛才宣稱看得開的神情，尤其水火不相容。永忠的不幸仍舊是新生心上的一個疙瘩，這是再清楚不過了。她更加熱切地盼望著永忠快解放。她相信，只有他得到解放，新生才能最後得到解放。