Chapter 20 nineteen

Zhiyun opened the door and went in. Yingge, who was reading a book under the lamp, said with a smile: I'm leaving tomorrow!Are you so reluctant to part today? Only then did Zhiyun realize that there were tears on his face, and quickly wiped them away. I fell out with Dajiang.Zhiyun threw the handbag on the table in frustration.After getting along for a year and a half, she and Inge have become friends who talk about everything. Fall out?Why?Inge pushed away the book in front of him and asked seriously. Because he wants to return to China in the future, I don't want to.Our opinions and ideas are so different.Zhiyun said dejectedly.Sit on the edge of the bed and kick off your high heels.

Yingge stared at Zhiyun for a while, and slowly smiled. You two are so fun, like children, you haven't finished your books, it's still too early to go back!Isn't it superfluous to quarrel over this topic now?Helena, a lover's quarrel is funny, don't take it seriously.Inge said lightly. well!Yingge, you don’t understand Zhiyun and you are still sitting on the edge of the bed in a daze. She thinks that Yingge cannot understand the thinking and situation of modern Chinese people, and she doesn’t want to explain it in detail. Understand that there is no great reason for her to stay.

Helanna, don't be so troubled, Dajiang will definitely come to apologize to you tomorrow.I think he really loves you.Seeing that Zhiyun was always frowning, Yingge couldn't help but comfort him. No, he won't, Yingge, you haven't seen the other side of Dajiang, he is very stubborn.No one can change what he wants to do.Zhiyun gave up and said. Will he take you to the station tomorrow morning? I don't think so, we really fell out.Zhiyun shook his head. Is it really that serious?How about this!If Da Jiang really doesn't come, I'll take you to the station.Inger said with a smile.

The next morning, both Zhiyun and Yingge got up at five o'clock and tidied up before six o'clock.Inge said: It's time to call a car. You should be at the station earlier. Please call and call a taxi for me!I take things out.Zhiyun opened the door as he spoke, and lifted the box out.As soon as she walked out of the door, she saw Jiang Xiaofeng walking across the street. I will take you to the station.Jiang Xiaofeng went to pick up the box in her hand. No, Inge has already called for a taxi.Zhiyun refused to give the box to Jiang Xiaofeng. No, I'll send you off.Jiang Xiaofeng took the box hard.

At this time, Yingge was taking out Zhiyun's other odds and ends, and when he saw Jiang Xiaofeng, he smiled mysteriously at Zhiyun. How about it?Or I expected it, right?Helena, I hope you are doing well and have a great trip.A taxi will be there in a quarter of an hour.Goodbye!Yingge and Zhiyun kissed the cheeks, shook hands with Jiang Xiaofeng, and then slipped in. It was still too early, there were no pedestrians on the road, and there was no foul smell of gasoline in the air.There is a red cloud in the eastern sky, the sun is climbing up, and there are birds chirping on the treetops by the roadside.Zhiyun didn't sleep well all night, so he was listless at this time, and couldn't feel the freshness of the morning at all.She looked at Jiang Xiaofeng silently, seeing that his face was pale, he was exhausted, and he was still dressed in the same clothes as yesterday, so she knew that he hadn't slept all night.

You didn't go back all night?she asked in surprise. Jiang Xiaofeng nodded, looking at Zhiyun dejectedly. Zhiyun, I walked outside and thought all night.Zhiyun, I can't lose you, I gave up and went back to my country, I said to him like an endorsement, the voice was flat, without any tone. Dajiang Zhiyun shook his heart.She stared at Jiang Xiaofeng obsessively for a while, then fell on his broad chest.Dajiang, you are so kind, you love me.I will make it all up and we will be the best and happiest couple ever.Dajiang, I can't tell you how much I love you, Dajiang murmured incoherently, her whole body was overwhelmed by emotion.Dajiang, really, I can't express how much I love you.

Zhiyun, me too, me too.Jiang Xiaofeng stroked Zhiyun's back and her dark cloud-like hair, and said blankly.He stared blankly at the high gray wall across the street. In the taxi, Zhiyun leaned beside Jiang Xiaofeng, and said affectionately: Dajiang, if we don't see each other for three months, I will miss you very much, don't forget to write to me. For sure, Zhiyun. Don’t go to work anymore, don’t work too hard when writing papers or composing music, you need to pay attention to your body. Didn't you tell me to hurry up and finish the thesis?Jiang Xiaofeng still had that despondent look.

But health is at least as important as papers.Zhiyun said thoughtfully. Well, Zhiyun, I will pay attention.When you do this work, it is very hard, so you have to pay more attention.I wonder if you can bear it. What can't you bear?Da Jiang, for our future, I don't care what hardships I suffer.As long as the latter sentence: as long as we don't go back.For fear of causing new disputes, she did not speak out.He only raised his bright eyes and stared deeply at Jiang Xiaofeng. Zhiyun, I really can't live without you.Jiang Xiaofeng gently rubbed her shaggy hair with his chin, and said while pressing his throat.

Yang Wenyan and Jinghui had already been waiting on the platform.He was looking outside with his head open.Seeing Zhiyun and Jiang Xiaofeng approaching with boxes, both of them relaxed their tense faces at the same time. It's another sixteen minutes to drive, and it's only now!Really anxious!Yang Wenyan was embarrassed to complain about Zhiyun, so he yelled at Jiang Xiaofeng. You don't have to quarrel, we have been separated for so long.Why don't you say something about yourself?Jinghui saw that both Jiang Xiaofeng and Zhiyun were preoccupied, so she said that on purpose. The taxi was delayed on the road because there was a car breaking into it.Zhiyun explained.

Germans drive with all their might, and it's strange if they don't get into an accident.Yang Wenyan said. Hello!Yu Zhiyun, have you brought everything?Jinghui asked. I am these things.Zhiyun weighed the small box in his hand, and pointed to the big box that Jiang Xiaofeng was carrying for her.Miss, I didn't mean the suitcase, what I'm asking is have you taken your passport and ticket?Jinghui thought she didn't bring it, so she raised her voice anxiously. It's all here, don't rush into that.Zhiyun patted the leather bag on his shoulder. well!Our passport is the worst, but we can't do without it.Yang Wenyan shook his head and waved his hands again, sighing and said: In order to sign these three certificates, my two legs would have to be broken, I would find Father Yang Sheng, and then I would run to the Swedish consulate.Because the train passes through Denmark and Finland, you also need a Danish and Finnish visa.

Who told you to go?If people don't welcome me, I won't go.Jiang Xiaofeng, who had been silent all this time, suddenly said something out of cold air. Great musicians, we can’t compare to you. We have a future and a vision. Ordinary people like us need money!Without Brother Kong Fang, my restaurant would never be able to open. How can I start a business?To tell you the truth, Liao Jinghui and I go there every year. They have a record, and there is no difficulty in getting a visa. What is difficult is Ling's fiancée, Miss Yu Zhiyun.Yang Wenyan gestured to Jiang Xiaofeng and said. You sent Yu Zhiyun to work in Sweden, and you didn't let me know anything about it. I haven't settled the score with you yet!Jiang Xiaofeng was upset. That's not my fault, she told us not to talk about it.Yang Wenyan shrugged his shoulders and spread his hands out.After a pause, he continued: I received a letter from Lao Jia the day before yesterday. Well, how is he?Jiang Xiaofeng immediately became concerned. He was fine and things were going well.It is said that since he took over as the deputy factory manager and took charge of the technical part, the output of their factory has increased by one-third, and it is said that if it continues to develop like this, it will double in the near future.He told us to go back too!But I think I forget it, just stay here!I am Gou Quan, whose life is in troubled times, and I do not seek to be known to the princes.Without his drive, being able to open a restaurant to make ends meet is enough. Just after Yang Wenyan finished speaking, Jinghui said again: He also sent two photos!A family of four took a group photo, unfortunately I forgot to bring it for you to see.Lao Jia said that life in China is so good now that almost everyone can afford an apartment.They also bought it. It has three bedrooms and two living rooms. It is so beautifully furnished!It is said that the prices are also cheap. Food and clothing are available here and there.He also told a joke that he bought a leather coat for his wife when he returned to China. Her wife’s colleague insisted that it was an export product from Taiwan. His wife told him that he still didn’t believe it. It really came out of Taiwan itself!After Jinghui finished speaking, she laughed first, Yang Wenyan also laughed, and Zhiyun also smiled reluctantly to make fun of it.Only Jiang Xiaofeng had a pale face, neither spoke nor smiled, and looked like he was in a state of desperation. I think we have to get in the car, and we'll be driving in seven minutes!Jinghui said. Really, get in the car!Yang Wenyan lifted the box at his feet and led the way into the car. Jiang Xiaofeng and Zhiyun walked behind. Zhiyun whispered to Jiang Xiaofeng: I'll write to you when I get there, don't work too hard, and don't forget to write to me.Don't go to work anymore, let's see how much weight you have lost these days?I don't know if there is any hope for me to ask for a scholarship. It would be great if I can get one.You think, if we both had scholarships, we'd be able to get through the books sooner.She took Jiang Xiaofeng's arm and said in a flattering tone. I know, you have to be extra careful, work in the freezer, don't freeze.Jiang Xiaofeng's tone was dull, and he also looked dull.It was still a while before they left the car, but the two of them just looked at each other, unable to speak any more. For the sake of cheapness, they didn't book a seat. The second-class car was crowded, so they finally found two seats. Yang Wenyan told Zhiyun and Jinghui to sit, and stood by himself.Someone will get off at the next stop, and we have to change trains again when we arrive in Hamburg. I will not stop in Sweden.he said optimistically.He took the big bag from Jinghui's hand, put it on the luggage rack, and muttered: This is dry food for the road, and it must be put in a safe place. Still brought dry food?Yang Wenyan is really thoughtful.Zhiyun said. This is the poor way of traveling, not thoughtful!The meals in the car are too expensive for us to afford.As Yang Wenyan said, he stretched his neck and glanced at the big electric clock on the platform from the window.Ouch!Dajiang, get out of the car!It will be open in three minutes. Jiang Xiaofeng stared at Zhiyun blankly for a while, then held her hand tightly and said: I'm going down, don't forget to write.Just let her go. Jinghui squinted her eyes and smiled at Zhiyun, Zhiyun just pretended not to see, her heart was full of sadness of parting, Jiang Xiaofeng's silence and indifference made her even more uneasy.She almost had the urge to get off the car with Jiang Xiaofeng and not go to Sweden. Da Jiang, don't worry, I will protect Yu Zhiyun for you.Yang Wenyan sent Jiang Xiaofeng to the door of the car, and when he came back, the car had already started, and Zhiyun and Jinghui were waving to Jiang Xiaofeng on the platform through the window. Sure enough, several people got off at the first stop, and Yang Wenyan also got a seat.Three people together, the journey will naturally not be lonely.Not only is she not lonely, but Zhiyun feels that Jinghui and Yang Wenyan talk too much.She didn't sleep well last night, and her heart was not at peace, so she couldn't get up, and she didn't have the energy to say anything.Yang Wenyan and Jinghui kept talking about this and that, but she just quietly watched from the sidelines, occasionally adding a word or two. Seeing Yang Wenyan and Jinghui so happy and working together to pursue common goals and eternal happiness, Zhiyun couldn't help but feel deeply moved.Thinking about Jiang Xiaofeng, I felt even more pimples.Although he promised her to stay, it was very reluctant, very reluctant, and even made him very painful.She could see that from yesterday to today, he had almost changed into a different person, becoming depressed, not at all like the usual Jiang Xiaofeng who was full of energy.Would staying abroad cause him such pain? Is returning home really that important to him?Is it true that the only thing I have to do in my life is to create my own voice as he himself said?Yes, he is patriotic and has a strong national consciousness. He really wants to do this from the bottom of his heart.However, isn’t it possible to create while staying in a foreign country?For example, just like when she was on the mountain last summer vacation, she wrote the lyrics and he composed the music, and then they could send it back for people in China to sing.She has no objection to letting Chinese people sing China's own songs, but she still doesn't feel that this problem is as serious as Jiang Xiaofeng said, and it is seriously related to the self-esteem and self-confidence of the entire Chinese nation.Nor do they feel that it is worth giving up everything and throwing themselves into it for this purpose.I even wondered if I really went back, what would I get?She doesn't believe that people in the country are willing to accept our songs, even if they accept them, it may not be able to inspire the self-esteem and confidence of the nation.She felt that Jiang Xiaofeng's artistry was too strong, too idealistic, and many concepts and practices were unrealistic. However, no matter whether he is right or wrong, the pain of giving up and going back to China to create our songs is profound.She was disturbed and guilty about it, and couldn't really calm down anymore.So, should we simply let go of this idea of ​​staying, or should the two go back to the country together?Following this idea, so many practical problems came to my eyes immediately, such as parents' opposition, relatives and friends' ridicule, and my own dissatisfaction. Why can everyone stay abroad to seek stability and development, but Yu Zhiyun cannot? ?Who is willing to go back if he can stand outside?Going back means there is no way, and, again, how much effort did it take to get out?How could you just go back like that?No, the matter of going back must not take into account the bumpy train rushing forward, the houses, fields, and woods, all slipping past lightly.Zhiyun's eyes were empty, as if he didn't see anything, and his whole body fell into extreme confusion.In the past, he was in pain and uneasy because of the promise he gave Jiang Xiaofeng to return to China.Now that Jiang Xiaofeng has promised her not to return to China, she has shaken off that shackles and got what she asked for.But she is still unhappy and not relaxed, and the burden on her heart is still so heavy, as if she is being pressed, bound, or blocked by something. Hello!Yu Zhiyun and Jinghui bumped Zhiyun with her elbow. ah? |Zhiyun looked away from the window as if waking up from a dream. What are you thinking?I called you a few times but I couldn't hear you.Jinghui pouted. Xu Shi didn't sleep well last night, and his head was a little dizzy.Zhiyun said hesitantly. You look mentally ill, but don't get sick before you arrive in Sweden.Jinghui studied Zhiyun's complexion attentively. No, don't worry about it.Zhiyun deliberately smiled indifferently. Is it the sun?I draw down the curtains.Yang Wenyan stood up and pulled down the black gauze curtains, adding a sense of shade to the seat. If the sun can rise for half a month in three months in Sweden, we will be considered lucky.Jinghui said.Seeing that Zhiyun was pursing his lips and smiling, he asked: Huh!why are you laughing? I laughed at how people in Europe always talk about the weather and the sun, as if this is some great topic of conversation. That's the same sentence, what is rare is the most precious, there is too little sunshine here!There is as much sunshine as in Taiwan.Yang Wenyan said as he took the pocket off the shelf.I think it's time to eat. Only when we are full can we travel spiritually.People go to Northern Europe by plane, but we take the train chattering around, it will take a long time!He took ham sandwiches from his pocket and gave each of them one. How about it, my homemade sandwiches are not bad!There is also pickled cucumbers in it!Yang Wenyan raised the sandwich in his hand for self-promotion, ate it with big mouthfuls, and smiled with satisfaction. It was ten o'clock in the evening when the car arrived in Hamburg, and it took nearly fifteen hours to walk.Several people have already been dizzy.The weaving police asked: Is it a long time to go from Hamburg? It's early!Miss, this is only half way.Jinghui said. I changed trains from Hamburg, and after walking for two hours, the train boarded a ship crossing the sea. The lights on the ship were bright, and the sea was calm, so people could get off the train. Although it was already midnight, Zhiyun couldn't stop Zhiyun's desire to see the sea in the night.Yang Wenyan found a sheltered corner on the deck and told Zhiyun and Jinghui to sit, while he stood leaning on the railing, his short hair was blown to one side or another by the sea breeze. Yang Wenyan, sit down too!Don't worry, it's midnight!Jinghui called. I never get sick.Yang Wenyan turned to look at Zhiyun and then at Jinghui, and seeing that Zhiyun's head was wrapped in a gauze, he said to Jinghui: You wrap your head up too!Jinghui said: I am not afraid of the cold.But she also covered her head with a silk scarf. Zhiyun didn't say a word, just looked greedily at the sea under the moonlight.In the clear light of the moon, one can clearly see waves of white waves rushing in, and then receding quickly like a tide, rolling over and over again, the water waves are sometimes dark, and sometimes flashing like mercury. sparkling light.Zhiyun grew up on an island, but she has never really seen the sea. She feels that the sea is so beautiful, so big, so vast and far-reaching. Say what else is in her mind?That was Jiang Xiaofeng, she fantasized how wonderful it would be if he was by her side!Later, she suddenly remembered Xu Zhimo's little poem called Occasionally, the line: You and I meet on the sea of ​​​​the night, you have your direction, and I have my direction.Made her feel a little disappointed.But she immediately put it aside and told herself: These words are not applicable to Jiang Xiaofeng and her at all. It was two o'clock in the morning when the car arrived in Copenhagen, and Zhiyun didn't see anything. The impression he got was: Copenhagen was dark, like a dead city. How long will it take to arrive?she asked with a bitter face. early!We will soon cross the sea to Finland, and then we will have to cross the sea to reach Sweden.Go to sleep!It won't be until noon tomorrow!Yang Wenyan said. Um, will it take that long?Zhiyun didn't bother to ask any more questions, and leaned slumped on the corner of the chair, looking sad and pitiful. When the car arrived at the small industrial town in Sweden, just as Yang Wenyan said, it was already noon the next day.One day and one night in the car, both Yang Wenyan and Jinghui leaned back in their chairs and fell asleep soundly.Only Zhiyun was never a person who fell asleep easily, and he couldn't really fall asleep while sitting on the shaking and shaking train, he just dozed off a few times in a daze.When she got out of the car, she had a pale face and a cold body, like a patient. The accommodation is cleaner and more beautiful than in Germany.Four people live in one room. In their room, besides Zhiyun and Jinghui, there are two girls from Austria who also speak German. They get to know each other right away, and life is not lonely. Their job is to pack food for a world-renowned freezing factory.Zhiyun is assigned to the group that packs peas, and Jinghui packs fish, and the two of them are not together.Sure enough, as Jinghui said, they were working in the freezer.Zhiyun added two sweaters to his white overalls, and wore thick woolen trousers on his legs, and felt that the cold air was always pouring on him. This time Yang Wenyan has been upgraded and no longer does packaging work.His new job is to carry things, and push away the frozen food in boxes.Jinghui simply called him a coolie.Although coolies are a bit harder, their wages are almost doubled.Because of obtaining such a high-paying position, Yang Wenyan and Jinghui are smiling every day, and they are in a particularly good mood.Jinghui said several times: It seems that the restaurant is really opened this time when I go back. The wages are settled every two weeks. When Zhiyun first got the Swedish Gudun, which was equivalent to seven hundred and dozens of marks, he was really sad and happy, and he was very emotional for the hard money he had earned.Two weeks on the job, she lost two pounds, had a cold, and now has a stuffy nose.In her letter to Jiang Xiaofeng, she said: This work is very hard and boring. For eight hours a day, all I look at are small round and green peas. My job is to shovel those hateful beans into plastic bags. The action is always the same, without any change.Even the kind of person with the best temper and self-cultivation, I'm afraid I won't be able to stand this boring, not to mention my temper and self-cultivation are both low-level (maybe slightly better than low-level).Luckily I have a good way to combat this excruciating tedium, and guess what my good way is?Xiao Feng, I just miss you. Thinking of your deep affection and love for me, I feel that I can bear this job.For our bright future, I am not afraid of suffering. She asked Jinghui to take two photos of her in white work clothes and a white hat, and sent them to Jiang Xiaofeng. The letter to Taiwan's family is of course written in another way. She wrote: The scenery here is wonderful. The vast plains are cool and cool. Coming here is equivalent to escaping the heat. The comfort is unimaginable to those of you who live under the sun. At the same time, Not Lonely at all also attached two photos in the letter, but they were taken in front of a cool-looking forest when they went out to play on Sunday.