Chapter 12 twelve

The life of young people in Taiping is like a revolving lantern shining on a calm spring night like still water. It is a kind of reciprocating, overlapping, and endless rotation; Here comes, autumn comes, the colorful dream bubble bursts and rises again, in fact, it is still some repetitions and reincarnations that are extremely monotonous. Summer vacation is summer vacation.Nansen decided so from the beginning. Buying old books, going to the library, or paying a few dollars to sit on a star, soaking yourself in the air-conditioning to freeze, everything follows the old formula.Sometimes I am ingenious, sitting alone in front of the monkey cage in the zoo, waiting to see the monkey fall in love, recalling the childhood that is too far away, deliberately finding some sadness to fill the dull long summer, it seems to be a kind of fun .Sometimes when I meet Lao Gao, he doesn’t cut his hair or shave his beard. He pretends to be a thin horse with long hair. He appears in those places like a philosopher, as if waiting for the start of school. a pleasure.

Hey, Lao Gao, how energetic are we in Hualien?Why do you seem to have nothing to do these days? When a person is in Taipei, his whole body becomes weak and his joints become loose.Lao Gao said: Even the music turns into molluscs, what do you think we can do?If you want to endure hardships, if you don’t have hardships, you want to be a soldier. Before the time comes, you will be forced to wander around in addition to K’s book.If you want, you can talk about love and write love letters, or adjust it in another way. If you want to find something meaningful, you have to spend a lot of effort to find it!

According to you, this is an environmental issue. I'm glad I said so.Lao Gao said: Look at the north written by those thin horse-shaped writers. We have never dreamed of those works that reveal the suffering of life.Some people often accuse this generation of young people of being worthless, and they have plausible arguments. What about the Northern Expedition and the Anti-Japanese War? They never thought about what kind of environment is around us? If it is during the Anti-Japanese War, we will smash the ballroom! Just because it is not, we can't smash it, otherwise it will become a nuisance to public order!Lao Gao smiled lazily and said: So, let's take a break from the air-conditioning, this is how it is in modern times.

The shadow of the revolving lantern swirled in Nansen's heart. He didn't want to have this kind of empty discussion with Lao Gao anymore, and tried his best to get out of this overlapping reincarnation.He went to see Meizhen once, but it happened that Meizhen was working overtime, so he didn't see her.He wrote a very gracious letter to Meiqian, greeted Chen, and politely described his busyness and happiness, like a bored monkey in a zoo, never worrying about being hungry.He even went to the church for a party, recalling the shadow of Meiqian in front of Maria's portrait. He was unwilling to deceive the true feelings left in his heart, which were just sealed and could not be washed away.

Meiqian didn't reply, but Chen Limin wrote seven or eight pieces of letter paper densely, like writing prose, beautifying the life in Hualien, and praised Nansen strongly, saying a lot of good things.In the end, he humbly said that his level is poor, that he doesn't know enough about Meiqian in many things, but he just loves Meiqian. Take care, ask Nansen to take care of her more.At the end of the letter, he said: I trust you completely with her! This sentence made Nansen smile wryly for a long time after reading it. After all, Chen Limin is a childish child. He writes the letter too enthusiastically and speaks too naively. He forgets that the other party is not a trust bureau, but a man of flesh and blood with passion and desire. fiancée.

Lao Gao read the letter and joked with Nansen: Brother Ha, you have to be careful, in case Meiqian is snatched away by you in the future, how will you explain to her? Do you think I will?I am carrying the cross now.Nansen said: If you don't believe me, go to the Bible. Back then, even Jesus didn't suffer like I did in this kind of thing. Whom to blame?Even if it was suffering, he found it himself. If he hadn't sent a letter to greet Chen, he would not have written such a letter.If you don't agree to Chen Ba, you will appear guilty and timid. When Meiqian asks in the future, she can't find an excuse to agree to Chen Ba. This kind of psychological burden is too heavy!Although he can maintain a friendship with Meiqian that he has to endure pain to maintain, the purer and more perfect the friendship, the more he has to give.

After thinking hard for a few days, he finally calmed down, wrote back and agreed to Chen, and promised him not to tell Meiqian, and if Meiqian had any difficulties at school, he would write to him.He is not willing to be so weak, no matter how heavy the burden is, he has to shoulder it happily and help Meiqian and Chen so that they can be happy.Since both of them regard him as a confidant, then I should be open and aboveboard, and be their confidant sincerely. By the time school started, his emotional scars had healed.After the scar shell was removed, he became more comfortable and calm, and he was the funny and enthusiastic old brother Ha again.Thinking of the Dadu Mountain where he had been away for a summer, and the lively second◯fourth room, he hurried back to school happily; of course, he was determined not to mention any emotional matters to anyone, because that had become the past, something he wanted to forget past.

In the dormitory, I met Old Su first, and the two punched each other fiercely, and then they swung haha ​​to talk. Nansen rubbed Old Su's flat head and said: You kid looks like you came from Africa, with black skin all over your body! I bask in the sun south of the Tropic of Cancer!Old Su twisted his fat cheeks with his backhand and said: You are very happy. You have a beautiful trip on the Hengguan Road. You are in a cheerful mood and let the Hualien potatoes make you fat! Nansen shrugged his shoulders and gave a wry smile. The new scar still couldn't bear to be peeled off, and it was somewhat painful to peel off.

We went to the welfare agency to chat, and he said: Go and count the familiar faces. Walk!Old Su's style has always been rough: I should also look for my little button, (small button refers to a pocket-sized girl.) I also learn to be a little cute and help her carry her luggage. The welfare agency is crowded with boys and girls who don't have the taste of the East China Sea. At first glance, they look like freshmen, and they take up the table.The two walked around inside, but they didn't see any familiar faces. Nansen sighed and said: You see, these back waves are pushing three times and rushing twice, and we have to pack our luggage and roll down Dadu Mountain!

You are a little too sensitive, you just set foot on Dadu Mountain last summer.Old Su said: When you get to Sishang, it’s never too late to be nervous. The two walked along the boulevard and turned to the school gate, just in time to meet Lao Gao, and the three of them sat down in a cold drink shop outside the school gate. Why are you so late?Are you waiting for Xiaocui? My joints have loosened in the summer of Taipei!Lao Gao said: Before coming to Donghai, you have to tighten the screws and do some mental cleaning, so that you can make good use of this semester! The taste of Dadu Mountain is different from that of the city. It is empty and quiet, and it is full of spirituality. It is no wonder that when people come here, they cheer up and hope to think about something seriously, learn something, and do something.

Is there a pharmacy here?Old Su said. This question came out of nowhere, Nansen and Lao Gao were both taken aback when they heard this question, they couldn't figure out what was going on with him? How, you feel a little uncomfortable?Nansen said. That's not true. Then you get nervous and ask the pharmacy why? Buy some stomach milk tablets. Why buy stomach milk tablets? For you to eat!Old Su said: You are so sick of talking!According to what you say, Donghai is the only good university in the world?National Taiwan University, National Normal University, National Chengchi University, Soochow University, and ZTE in Taipei are all the dregs that were lost in Taipei?Not spiritual?exhausted?No idea?Then you don't want to graduate forever, sticking to the arms of Dadu Mountain forever?You are all bookish. Come on, our Socrates has a reason this time!Lao Gao said: Can you come up with some non-book-based arguments? Since there are no more books, there is no theory, Lao Su said: I only have practice! It can be done!Nansen said. For example, we want to absorb these new students to participate in work camps and expand our clubs, what should you do?Lao Gao deliberately made things difficult for Lao Su.While talking, I saw a group of girls who had just come to report, got out of the car of the Highway Bureau, and walked by with their luggage. He pointed at them and said: Let them be your targets, just see your way. good!Lao Su said: I have a way to invite them to eat noodles, and then ask them to obediently fill out the form to participate in the work camp. Don't be so smug here, Nansen shook his head and said: Beware of bragging, you will make a fool of yourself immediately.You are not a magician. These girls are no better than Xiaocui and Dawa. I know their psychology. With your oily voice, Old Su, you will eat as soon as you come up. Are they willing to eat noodles with you?Do you still have to fill out the form obediently?Do you really want to go to the pharmacy because you have a high fever? What you bought is not gastric milk tablets, but a cold remedy? joke!Old Su said: Don't worry about these things, if I really invite them to eat noodles and fill out forms, what do you say? Nansen patted his chest and said: Then, I will pay! Old Su stood up and said: You help Lao Gao carry the luggage back to the dormitory first, and go to the welfare agency immediately to watch my live performance. Twenty minutes later, Nansen and Lao Gao went to the welfare agency, and they were dumbfounded!Eight girls sat on both sides of the long table, everyone was eating noodles in a decent manner. Old Su Hu was sitting on it, holding a stack of completed forms in his hand, pretending to be counting there Woolen cloth.When he saw Nansen and Lao Gao coming in, he rushed to stand up and introduced: This is the new director of the work camp, this is Secretary Gao, the noodles are what they invite, and I am the service staff. Before Nansen could reply, all the girls stood up in silence, bowed together and said: Hello, Director, thank you for the noodles! Okay, don't be too polite, Lao Su said to the girls: After eating the noodles, Secretary Gao will help you with your luggage and take you to the girls' dormitory!We are all classmates, and we will be in the work camp together in the future, so there will be many opportunities to meet each other!Because I have to go to the school gate to receive my classmates, I won't accompany you! As he spoke, he winked at Nansen, dropped the stack of forms filled out by the girls, and he just walked away. Under such a situation, Nansen couldn't ask any questions, so he bit the bullet and broke the money, and hugged a stuffed gourd.Old Gao was even worse. He carried four or five travel bags and net baskets in both hands, and accompanied those unknown freshmen to the girls' dormitory. When he returned to the dormitory with Nansen, when he opened the door, he saw that Lao Su had already taken off his clothes. Socks, lying there rubbing feet. What the hell are you doing, kid?Lao Gao said. Who is doing what?Lao Su said: This is what I do. Could it be that I forged the stack of forms?I absorbed new blood rounds for the work camp, is this also called a ghost? I have convinced you.Nansen said: Play out the hole cards and let us learn, shall we? Well, that sounds like a joke.Old Su said: These little girls, who first came to Dadu Mountain, are a group of typical little bumpkins, and they are the easiest to deal with!If you treat them well at the beginning, they are used to having a special impression on the people they first met here, and it will be easy to promote their work in the future! Can you avoid detours? In fact, there is no bend at all.I went up and told them that I was sent by the Donghai Work Camp to receive and serve freshmen. I carried packages for them, took them to the welfare agency, and told them that filling in forms and eating noodles were established procedures. What Director Li explained was a bit vague, and they thought Brother Ha was a teacher. You shouldn't be called Lao Su, you should be called Mouse!Lao Gao held his stomach with a smile and said: I really should let you try Warticide! It should be inspiring to you scholars!The service is right, even if Brother Ha spends money, you will be too tired.Old Su said: My locomotive can't be separated from your carriage. Perhaps it is because of you, Lao Su, that Dadu Mountain is nostalgic and refreshing!Hope my ass doesn't hit the horse's leg.Nansen said: I have never been as happy as I am today during summer vacation, maybe it is because I am not with you. Your ass is on the right track!I take all of them.Although a bit mushy.A bearded and smelly foot like me can actually make people happy and uplifting?You believe it, I can't believe it myself! And happiness does exist.It's not who makes someone happy, but when they get together, they create a youthful and sharp stirring force.He came in the afternoon, and rooms two and four returned to their usual bustle, and the time of the new semester stretched out before their eyes like a folding fan. Nansen went for a walk on the campus at dusk. The trees on the campus seemed to have grown taller and firmer after being moistened by the long summer sun and rain.The secluded red soil path, the soft and flat grass, the broad sunset avenue, some flowers and plants with special memories, the corridor of the College of Arts, all of these, in his eyes, are the joy of reunion after a long absence. Coming out of the Literary Academy, someone called him from the fork in the road. He looked and saw Xiaocui and Meiqian holding hands, standing on the shallow grass over there. The blue shallow grass is like an emerald plate, on which two young girls with bright colors and bright clothes stand, as if there are two plump fruits in the plate.Meiqian smiled at him, and Xiaocui was holding a large bouquet of variegated wild flowers picked from nowhere. Hello bro, hello!Xiaocui said: We are all in Taipei, but we haven't seen you in the summer. I am an aestivator! Where do aestivating animals come from? The Lazy Sutra.Nansen said: There is a lazy man who refuses to study. Didn't he write a doggerel saying that spring is not a day for reading, and summer is so hot that he can sleep well? You, you talk nonsense as soon as you meet, and you don't say a serious thing. Nansen shrugged his shoulders habitually, and glanced at Meiqian.In this kind of occasion when meeting Meiqian, it is easy to say something light-hearted, but if you talk about seriousness, it will appear unnatural.But Meiqian was not like that, she was so natural and pure to him, she talked to him a lot, and asked about Meizhen who was almost forgotten by Nansen. She said she was moving again, you know that? have no idea.Nansen said: After returning to Taipei, I visited her once, but she was not at home.Ask again: Who did you listen to? She mentioned it in the letter.Meiqian said. Moving there again? It seems to be Luzhou, I don't know what kind of place it is? Nansen remained silent, apologetic in his heart, and at the same time felt that Meizhen had indeed neglected him, as if he hadn't received a letter from her for a long time.In the past, although she seldom mentioned her living conditions, she would not be as secretive as she is now.Speaking of it, the responsibility still falls on me, I am so busy all day long, I have never seriously written a letter for her, Meizhen is a careful girl, maybe she doesn't want to bother herself? After walking for a while, Meiqian mentioned the publication of this issue of the magazine again, and asked him to make an appointment for the manuscript. Nansen agreed, always thinking about Meizhen's moving, and whether there was something new in her life. Variety?Is there a new problem in the economy?Although he can't do anything to help her, it's always good to know. Are all the four monsters in your dormitory here?Xiao Cui said that her lively temperament could not stand a little dullness. Just arrived.Nansen said: What advice do you have? Is it not enough to ask? OK, then I'll ask you too.Nansen said: What happened to you and our philosopher?I mean Lao Gao. What happened to him?Xiaocui pouted and gave him a blank look. Why are you trying to avoid him?Let him suffer alone in Hualien for four weeks.Meiqian was there, she was a living witness. I didn't make a contract with anyone, saying that I was going to Hualien.Xiao Cui said: He went to Hualien out of his own volition, and no one led him by the nose. He deserved all the suffering. What does it have to do with me? Drink, talk for a long time, so it's irrelevant? Of course not.Xiaocui said: Do you have anything to do with Meiqian?She has her Chen, and you have your Meizhen. But Lao Gao only has you in his heart. If you don’t have Lao Gao in your heart, who else is there? no one.Xiao Cui said: A desert. It is because of a desert that we need love to irrigate. Damn you!DAMN DAMN! You villain!Bad ghost, bad ghost! With a giggling smile, Xiaocui raised her hand and chased after Nansen. Nansen ran towards the red dirt path. Xiaocui said: Brother Siha, I never see you again! It doesn't matter, Nansen said: Even if I can't see you, I won't be broken in love. I can't stand your hygienic eyes. Xiaocui chased after her again, and Nansen ran back again. The two of them circled around Meiqian like moths fluttering at a lamp. It was Meiqian who said: They are both sophomores, and they still look like children, so both of them should stop. Xiao Cui couldn't run any longer, and still said reluctantly: Meiqian, tell me something fair, Brother Ha, is he bullying others by doing this? In fact, I have a good intention to tease you to exercise.Nansen said: Let me salute you and take back all the words I just said, won't everything be fine?You don't want to be narrow-minded like ordinary girls. Me, if I say I don’t care about you, I don’t care about you. The lively teasing for a while really made Nansen feel cheerful.Leaving them, the noisy waves sank, his heart still entangled with a slight melancholy, so that he had to try to disperse them with a whistle. In the first few days of class, few students in the class could calm down: some chatted about each other's summer vacation life, some exchanged behind-the-scenes news between classes, they usually get along well, and they stick together in small groups, talking about everything. talk. Lao Gao briefly talked about Hualien, and when talking about Little Fairy’s fiancé, he published: Such a crooked boy who fell out of thin air, in my opinion, is not worthy of a little fairy no matter what. She can do it if she thinks it suits her. Does she need you to get a mouse?Old Su said: You should be concerned about Xiao Cui.According to the road news released by well-informed sources, it is said that after you went to Hualien, many people were chasing her.There was a guy from the physics department who wrote dozens of love letters to her. Counting the number of words added up, it was comparable to a graduation thesis. Don't listen to his bullshit, old Gao.Lao He said: How much time does he have in total during the summer vacation, and how can he write so many love letters? You can't say that, one letter a day, the density can't be considered high! Haha, Nansen laughed and said: That can't be called a love letter, it's an emotional daily report! The classmate in the physics department has better qualifications than me, and there is a bit of sour taste in the old Gao's words: These days, Group A is a big hit, and everything pays attention to science. After going to the United States to wash dishes for a few years, he will soon be an authoritative scholar!As for me, I learned to go to the gutter, and it would be nice to have some leftovers to eat, and I still hope that the colored ball will hit the beggar's head? Philosopher, don't be discouraged first, okay?Nansen had laughed at Lao Gao earlier, saying that he was so well-educated and had a sour relationship with his children, but now he fully sympathized with and understood Lao Gao, and comforted him by saying: Love is unconditional, and Xiao Cui should understand this. Who doesn't understand?Lao Gao said: Reality is reality. For example, in your sociology department, you have been down the mountain for four years.Of course, you may be able to support a wife, but it is by no means a high branch. You have ideals you choose, and she has ideals she chooses! I do not believe.Nansen said: Not all girls are as tacky as you think. I have no extreme ideas of money worship, I must declare this.Lao Gao said: What I said is just a matter of basic facts, I am not trying to convince anyone, you just listen to it! It was my fault that caused Lao Gao to complain. Lao Su said: Next time I will decide to remember it and stop mentioning daffodils in front of Lao Gao. After saying this for a few days, Lao Su jumped into the dormitory, clapped his hands excitedly and shouted, he said: Lao Gao, you have to understand, it's not that I don't mean what I say, and I mentioned Xiaocui again in front of you, it's really extra news!She actually framed the love letter written to her by the guy from the physics department into a very long banner titled "Wonderful Essays for All", and an unprecedented exhibition will be held in Mingxian Hall! Hey, is there such a weird thing?Nansen jumped up first. Why would Xiaocui do this?He said. Does that need to be said?She didn't like that guy, but that man was pestering her, so she did this to make a fool of him! You two calm down, don't be fooled by Lao Su.Lao Gao lay on the chair and shook, saying: There will be no such thing. Today is not April Fool's Day, why should I lie?Lao Su said: The love letter exhibition is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. There are a lot of people crowded there. how?That kid's love writing is good? It can only be said that it is very foreign.Old Su Ba slapped his fingers and said: I just browsed through it just now, and it seems that since I met you, I have had an atomic reaction in my heart.I don't know if I have the honor of dating you.I will return to you with the speed of Shennong's rocket.Hey, there are so many! This kid's K physics K is too hot, and his brain and nervous system are in chaos!Nansen said: How can Xiaocui stand up to his scientific bombardment? Let's go, Lao He unexpectedly also became anxious: Let's all go to see the western scenery! I'm not going.Lao Gao said: I am waiting to hear your visit report. Nansen and Lao Su rushed to Mingxian Hall, met the big doll head-on, covered his mouth with a handkerchief, and coughed until he laughed. Nansen said: What kind of Western scene, so funny?We also plan to visit it. It's a pity you came a step late.The big baby coughed and said: After those letters were exhibited publicly, Xiao Cui already took them away and burned them!If you rush to the land father next to the cemetery now, you may be able to pick up the leftover scraps of paper. Thanks to that classmate who can write it, writing love letters is also a copy, copying a paragraph of Napoleon for a while, and a paragraph of Bernard Shaw for a while! Xiaocui's approach was unkind.Nansen said: Since you are not interested in that guy, just return the love letter to him. Once she announces it like this, how can you ask that man to step down?Fortunately, I didn't write it. If it was me, I would have to go down the mouse hole! Don't you know how troublesome that person is?The big baby wiped his chest and said: It seems that he must be mentally ill. He will love her for eighty years, and then take a rocket with her to get married on the moon!A dense long letter a day, treat it as funny, can you bear it? Hey, this is driving B︱52, facing our daffodils, and having a carpet-like emotional bombardment!Lao Su said: Xiaocui's attitude, it seems that Lao Gao still has hope! Forget it, don't worry about the ancients there.Nansen said: Lao Gao has his own Lao Gaofu, and he does not serve as an adviser for Lao Gao!Qiwen didn't look, I'm going to retreat.As he spoke, he waved to the big baby, left Lao Su and Lao He behind, and walked away whistling. Brother Ha is a bit weird recently.The big baby stared at Nansen's back and said: Is he in a mood? him?Old Su said: He is standing on the edge of the volcano now, he almost jumped into the crater!When you go to Hualien, you should know that Lin Meiqian has a fiancé, and Brother Ha is going to get along with her like this, isn't it a fire? I didn't think there was anything wrong, the big baby said: Nansen and Meiqian are just friends, and they haven't expressed anything further to each other, I know that. Of course nothing at the moment.Old Su said: Can you guarantee that they will not fall in love for a long time if they live like this?In my opinion, the days of constant cutting and chaos are still to come! Old Su's estimation didn't come true. On the contrary, Nansen's life was much calmer than his freshman's, and he wasn't so crazy or wild anymore. In fact, the mood and life contacts of the sophomore year are a little different from those of the freshman year. They are no longer as excited and curious as when they first came here. They want to explore everything, and welcome the free and unrestrained university life with the highest interest and joy. ;Due to the pressure of step-by-step courses, the free time is squeezed, and life naturally becomes stable and flat. The first love was stillborn, and he didn't even have a chance to express it. Of course, it was a serious blow to Nansen.What hurts him the most is that he still has to be entrusted by Chen Zhi to take care of Meiqian, always acting like a gentleman with a swollen face and a fat man.And that pain still comes at a price in the fact that he has found love, in his ideal image of the girl, the always glorified god who is the object of any young man's first love. He endured the pain, restrained his unrestrained emotions, and after sublimating this love, he matured a lot and restrained a lot in a slight depression, which was unexpected by Lao Su, who was always optimistic. He still laughs at the old saying: Our brother Ha is suffering from plague!Where is the veterinarian? Normally, Nansen would have retorted and made some light-hearted jokes, but now he just closed his eyes and smiled, and sent Old Su away!According to his own plan, he read some books quietly, or turned on the record player in a low voice, listened to some of his favorite classical music, went to the city alone on weekends, hunted a few good old books, and went to church on Sunday as usual, lazily Soaking his body and mind in the sound waves of the pipe organ and letting it loose, he does not deliberately listen to religious truths, but only loves the clean religious atmosphere. But on the other hand, such as publishing magazines and organizing various activities of the work camp, he was still as enthusiastic as usual, and he did not show any depression at all.It's just that during this period of transition, the truly youthful and unrequited happiness seems to be no longer so turbulent. He went to put up the posters for the welcome party, the sky was gray and drizzled in October, after the posters were pasted up, he stood under the wooden wall full of posters, and suddenly remembered that when he first came to Donghai a year ago, The drizzle of the satisfying fantasy that indulged in the colorful posters enveloped him, and today and yesterday were mixed in the boundless silk rain.He couldn't help laughing, a year ago, he was the bewitched, now it's time for him to bewitch the new freshman classmates. Because the sky was overcast and the temperature was low, the welcome party that was supposed to be held in Menggu was temporarily changed to Mingxian Hall.Nansen met Dawa. He recalled last summer, the night in Dream Valley, the light of the bonfire, and the two people dancing the folk dance together. Dawa said: The weather is cold this year, so the dream of Dream Valley is also frozen? Nansen shook his head lonely, the past time will not come back.People are always like this, they like to reminisce about the good times that have passed away. He will still remember that he met Meiqian for the first time in the firelight and moonlight that night. The dream of Menggu should really be frozen. At the orientation meeting, Nansen went to the stage as before, and played a whistle solo. The whistle was still very exciting, but his mood was completely different from that in Menggu.There was no bright moonlight in front of his eyes, no dancing flames, no shadow of the ancient bridge, and no dreamy feeling in his heart.He walked onto the stage calmly, and played the March of the Bridge on the River Kwai with a very skilled gesture.In Menggu, he once thought of Meizhen, who had no chance to enter the school, but this time, he just thought that he was performing a whistle, and what he was blowing was not his inner voice. Because of these changes in him, Meiqian became more and more sincere to him. Every Sunday, she always came to ask him to go to the church, and he talked with her intimately, walking side by side on the lush green avenue, like a pair of lovers on their way to happiness.In fact, that was the most painful moment when Nansen chewed on his feelings for Meiqian. He could restrain his thoughts, but he couldn't erase his feelings. Meiqian sang poems on the altar, her white face glowed with a kind of brilliance, and her deep eyes were as bright as the sun, which made him feel that all his worries and worries about her were unnecessary, and she could completely Stand on the road and move forward.He always looked at her from a distance, without blinking for a moment, it was like a solemn portrait, highlighting the beauty, without impurities, without the dust of the world. She might never know that he loved her. She listened to Professor Chen's poetry selection class with him. When she went to the class first, she always reserved a seat for Nansen beside her; Many classical poems on the Internet, detailed analysis of the emotions and expression skills of those poets.Nansen listened, and the lyrical poems would float up, float up, and float in mid-air, turning into some transparent images, blending with the past situations he had experienced.At this time, Professor Chen standing in front of the blackboard turned into a white dot moving on the eye mask, and her voice seemed to come from afar. Occasionally he would return to reality and take a peek at Meiqian. She was always concentrating on her lectures, taking notes quickly, and sometimes she would smile at Nansen when she realized something from poetry and gained insights.There was an extra-friendly magic in her smile, which made him tremble uncontrollably, but Nansen cherished this slight trembling, he felt that there was a little sweetness in the pain.When he gets along with Meiqian, he really feels like standing on the edge of a volcano. As long as Meiqian proposes everything first, Nansen never refuses, which seems to have become a habit; and the volcano has never erupted, and he appreciates it with fear. With intoxicating scenery. It's November again. The department held an outing and decided to go to the seaside of Qingshui.The big baby came to Nansen and asked him to lead everyone to play group games. I don't even want to go.Nansen said: When it comes to playing group games, old Su is better than me. Why don't you go?The big baby said: just don't give me face like this?My wife is Meiqian coming to see you, you must go. Autumn is too old!Isn't it inappropriate to go to the beach to drink the wind? If Meiqian also goes, you can go in winter, you will say: In winter, you need to bask in the sun.Live some outdoor life. I never said such a thing, how did you know I would? Do you want me to explain?The big baby blinked: I just want to ask you now, if Meiqian is not going, are you willing to play with us? I'll go, I'll go, Nansen hurriedly said: Don't talk about Meiqian and me together, okay? This is just a provocative method, which is to let you go out to enjoy the wind and bask in the sun; this semester, many girls in our dormitory are saying, what's wrong, Brother Ha has become inactive! Really?Nansen said: I don't think so. Even Xiaocui said that, and she could be false. Well.When I go to the beach, I will look for her and ask her for advice. On the day of the outing, the weather was very clear. It was November after all. The wind on the beach was very sharp and cold. From golden waves. Xiao Cui was wearing a white cashmere sweater, a white narrow skirt, and a thin little whitebait playing with shoe prints on the beach near the water. She walked over and came back to examine the Looking at the footprints under her feet, she found that some of them had been licked flat by the waves, so she stopped there, waiting for the waves to reach out and kiss her toes.Old Su said in Nansen's ear: Do you know why the big baby dragged you here? Of course, Nansen Jing: She asked me to lead the team game. Then you put the donkey's lip on the horse's mouth. I'm here to enjoy the scenery, it's always right.Nansen said: If you really need to ask me for something, don't keep it a secret. Here, old Su snarled to Xiaocui and said, "Look at what our tiehua is doing?"She is looking for the footprints she has stepped on. oh!Nansen suddenly realized and nodded and said: I never thought that the big baby is still so careful, where is Lao Gao?He even participated in it? The big baby was chatting with him.Old Su said: Wait a while for folk dancing or playing games, you have to find a way to pair him with her and let her find her lost footprints.To put it bluntly, it is to use the public to benefit one's own interests, and to make a difference. This is a meritorious deed, and the big baby has chosen you.how? Unbearable to catch a cold.Nansen said: Lao Gao, the founder of the love tortoise doctrine, the tortoise is very tortoise, but it is not a golden tortoise. Let our Xihua eat Yangchun noodles with him for a lifetime?It wasn't my idea. Both of them burst out laughing. Brother Ha is alive again!Xiaocui raised her head and called out, "What are you talking about that make you so happy?" We are talking about you, old Su said: Are your ears hot?he said, laughing out of his throat. Talk nonsense!What are you talking about about me?Xiao Cui also laughed, her pointed chin raised high, her long hair fluttering in the wind. We tell you that you are like a white mermaid, so charming.Nansen said: I don't know who will be fascinated first?In addition to the future great scientist who wrote the love letter, there will also be a second love letter exhibition. Xiaocui smiled, turned her body lively, and made a graceful flying posture and said: Brother Ha, you are the best at joking!Are you afraid of being misunderstood? Who got it wrong?Old Su said. She gave Nansen a white look and said: Brother Ha knows it himself! Nansen shrugged and said: Of course I know that there are too many boys chasing you, all of them are waiting for you to hit their heads with colored balls, I think this misunderstanding is inevitable! Xiaocui became angry, grabbed a handful of sand and wanted to throw Nansen on it, but Nansen turned his face and ran away, Xiaocui chased after her and said, "Why don't you stop?" This is not a colored ball.Nancha teased her: If it was a colored ball, I would stretch my neck and wait. One chased and the other ran, Nansen intentionally ran towards the big baby and Lao Gao, Xiaocui just chased them, and didn't pay attention to Lao Gao who was sitting there.When Nansen ran past Lao Gao, he deliberately slowed down a few steps. Xiaocui threw the sand, and Nansen jumped away. The sand was just on Lao Gao's face.When Xiaocui was in a hurry, she ran over directly, took out a handkerchief and handed it to Lao Gao, saying: I'm really sorry, I belong to Brother Saha, I didn't expect to slander you. Now, the group game begins!Nansen clapped his hands and announced: "The first program is hosted by the flower of this department, and the name is Tossing Colored Balls. Who did her colored balls hit?"You all saw it! Welcome Lao Gao and Xiao Cui to lead us to dance the folk dance. When Lao Su yelled, everyone applauded wildly, forcing these two once failed to hold hands again, leaving the laughter of youth behind. seaside. Everyone danced and sang songs on the beach together. Although Nansen was also laughing and making noises, without Meiqian together, he always felt empty inside.In the emptiness, Meizhen's shadow reappeared, but it was only a vague and distant place, indescribable. 時間是潮水，它自會沖走很多印在身後的腳印。 從海濱回來，老賀給他一張紙條，是美倩寫的： 南森：今天我找你，才知道你去郊遊。 亨德教授明午動身回國，他希望行前能見到你，和你話別。 明天我們一道兒去機場送行，工作營的同學，煩你儘快在今晚通知。 美倩 亨德教授和美倩一起到宿舍來的。賀說。 我這就先去看他。 他下山去了。賀說：行李也運走了。 真不巧，南森說：早知道，今天我就不去清水海邊玩了，我總以為他會在這兒過聖誕節的。 也許他更希望早一天看見他老家的白雪罷？ 南森捏著紙條，沉默了很久。 在這一年多的日子裏，大度山用它甯靜的胸懷，哺育著人的靈智，而亨德教授很少談過什麼理論，這位半生在中國生活，為中國盡力的老年人，常常笑著伸開他的雙手，一個屬於教授的同時也屬於勞動者的手，在中國高級知識份子群中還是少見的。他給予中國社會的，不光是知識，而是滿懷關切的實際行為，他走了，他的精神、愛心和希望仍留在這裏，這這已經足夠人沉默的去感覺，去思想，去領悟的了。 還有什麼樣的理由留住他，讓這位可敬的老人在遲暮之年仍懷念他家鄉的白雪呢？中國，畢竟是我們自己的中國，必須在年輕一代人的手上走向復興。 他的眼角有些潮濕了。 當晚，他跟老高和老賀，分別的去告訴工作營的同學，大家聽說亨德博士要回他自己的家鄉，過他的退休生活，都覺得很難過。第二天去機場，見到白髮蒼蒼的亨德，有好些孩子都兩眼濕濕的，一向甯和恬靜的美倩，白臉上也籠著一把憂鬱，那是割不斷的離愁。 南森走過去，亨德和他緊緊的握手。 教授，您走了，我們失去了一個好保姆。He said. 你們長大了。教授說：保姆就不用了。 請教授給我們幾句臨別的話罷，關於今後的工作營，我們應該怎樣去做？ me?教授笑說：還是兩句老話：不要濫用空泛的同情，無益的議論；細緻而實際的關愛所引發的行為，對社會、對人群，都是好的。 飛機就要起飛，把亨德教授載往北部去了，美倩和小翠代表同學們，把鮮花綴成的花環套在亨德的頭上，五分鐘之後，這一切都歸入了記憶。 由於亨德博士的離去，工作營的活動越發的熱烈起來；他們利用一連串的週末，到大度山頂斷崖邊的那四個村落去，幫村民挖通滿積污物的水溝，剷除了成噸的垃圾，晚上就放映電影。女同學去慰問那些農村的婦女，談一些實際衛生常識，告訴她們怎樣處理糞便，治療癬疥，怎樣避免寄生腸蟲，即使是從書本上搬來現買現賣呢，總歸對她們有些幫助的。 在男同學裏面，南森是最熱心賣力的一個，他穿著灰色的舊夾克，毛了邊的牛仔褲，挖溝時，滿身濺著泥水，滿頭都是蒸騰的汗氣。村裏的男人們眼看學生這樣的為他們的環境衛生賣力工作，也都插手來幫忙了。那些莊稼漢子幹起活來，可不像工作營的同學儘耍花拳繡腿，輕輕剷起一鍬土，抵得過學生掘五鍬。 乖乖，雷說：不跟他們在一起幹活，我們還不知自己是文弱書生呢！廿年的飯，不知吃哪兒去了，想想真是差勁。 我們在工作本身，並沒幫助人家什麼，南森說：但是，在精神鼓勵和刺激上，實在有點兒催化作用拔掉了這些傢伙身上的懶毛。 how do I say this?Old Su said. 還要解釋嗎？咱們不來這兒，甭說一個月兩個月，就過上一年兩年，他們也不會想到把環境弄清爽，任四周糟透，任疾病磨折他們自己，還迷信因果報應呢！ 甭把咱們鄉下人瞧扁了好不好？Old Su said. 你想開辯論會嗎？ 我祇覺得你的理論有點兒小毛病，傷風感冒之類的。老蘇陶侃的說：鄉下人固然缺乏知識，不注重環境衛生，城裏又怎樣呢？就拿貴處大台北來講罷，依我看，比鄉下更糟。 你的理論根據是什麼？南森在歇下來喝茶的時候說：不要侮辱杜鵑花城，把觀光客都嚇跑，那時候，觀光當局會指責你蔑視文明。 台北的水溝會比這兒乾淨？老蘇說：冒黑煙的汽車，能把孫悟空薰死，根本用不著老君爐。公共汽車變成活動垃圾箱，瑠公圳變成死貓死狗的水葬場，你走進巷口，女人的內褲就晾曬在你頭上！滿街喇叭聲能吵昏沒戴助聽器的聾子，擠公車花樣百出，簡直像到了野人窩。這就是咱們的現代文明第一章！高級市民寫的，你還有什麼道理責難鄉下人不講衛生？ 南森又習慣的聳起肩膀來。 你一定在哪兒喝多了苦醋，老蘇。老高說：要不然，你不會一反常態的窮嘔酸。據我所知，城市裏，具備現代國民條件的人不在少數，祇是沒能發揮他們的影響力量罷了。 假如我讀的是台大，我也要創組一個工作營，老蘇說：每天在公車上撿垃圾，影響影響那些厚臉皮；我們可以做更多的事情，讓大家檢討檢討那些不很適當的文明。 別在那兒烏托邦了！南森說：有許多不很適當的文明，還是由學生們首先倡導的呢！擠公車的冠軍獎，該由學生得；開舞會噪鬧獎，該由學生拿；處處效法社會，一付青出於藍的派頭，還有什麼好說的？咱們挖溝就是挖溝罷。 太陽下山了，天氣轉涼起來，因為賣勁幹活的關係，大夥兒非但不覺山風尖冷，反而渾身沁汗。直到工作完成了，才鋪開大油布，坐到草地上去休息。 美倩拎了茶壺來，替男同學倒茶，看見南森把夾克搭在肩上，就說： 剛出過汗，很容易著涼，還不快把上衣穿起來！ 亨德教授要不走，我也許不會這樣賣勁幹活。南森說：正因為他走了，我心裏印著他的話，才累出這一身的汗，也不知怎麼的，現在我很想病一病。 病一病幹嘛？ 躺在床上想想他的話呀！南森輕輕喟嘆說：剛才我跟老蘇他們閒聊天，聊出些使人洩氣的問題來，我就在想，假如教授在這兒多好，他一定會跟我們解釋的。 這跟生病躺在床上有什麼關係？ 要不然，我靜不下來。 南森這樣一說，把美倩逗得笑出聲來了。 開飯罷。老蘇說：晚上還得準備放映電影呢！我已經餓得腿軟啦。 開飯時，南森跟美倩坐對面，大家七嘴八舌的聊天時，他們卻默默的沒講什麼。紫霾霾的晚霞從西天燒到東天，有一群村童，在附近的紅土平場上嬉笑追逐著，黃昏很溫寂，從朦朧裏透著清晰。南森的心裏彷彿積了很多很多的話，想講給美倩聽。他們相處以來，就是無話不談的；自從在花蓮遇著陳力敏以後，他就把內心感觸及的許多事情隱藏了，形成了一種很自然的隔膜，美倩也許早就看出來了。 這些日子，你像變了很多，哈老哥。she says. 人總是要變的，大二跟大一不一樣了。 有沒有常下山，逛舊書攤，看電影？ and you? 美倩搖搖頭，然後笑說： 一個人，難得下山去一次，今年我祇去看過一場電影，魂斷藍橋，很老的片子。 哪天去坐坐卡門罷，南森說：冬天的夜晚，坐在暖洋洋的地方聽音樂，真過癮。 那得看時間夠不夠，美倩說：我星期天都忙著團契的事，總覺得時間不夠用似的。 沒課的下午也可以去，我總習慣先逛舊書攤，然後跑卡門，看我買來的書。 還習慣點上蠟燭。Meiqian said. right!還習慣喝不花錢的白開水。 也不知怎麼的，只要跟美倩隨便談談天，即使沒說出什麼，心情就會變得開朗起來，也許是美倩本身甯和的氣質，特別能給人一種安定的力量罷？一直到電影放映完了，在回校的路上，南森還在想著，為什麼一個能給人以幸福感的女孩子，她自己卻放棄了幸福，甚至於心甘情願的聽命於父母，放棄了可能比較美好的愛情？ 這念頭在南森的腦子裏盤旋著，使他更渴切的希望約會美倩，他覺得他必須要弄清楚，美倩心眼兒裏到底抱著什麼樣的想法？她不是自暴自棄的人，對於人生，她該有她自己特殊的選擇。 大度山十一月的夜，寒冷又透明，唱機在室內輕輕迴轉著，窗外是一片蟲聲，唧唧的網織著些許深秋的淒涼。他彷彿站立在一面光亮的夜的圓鏡當中，向許多不可理解的朦朦，伸出他思想的觸鬚，他入睡時，仍然枕著滿枕的蟲聲。 二更天。正該是尋夢的時候。